Yao Feng's In Brief
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Transcript of Yao Feng's In Brief
絕 句
in brief
姚風 / Yao Feng
譚曉汶 客遠文 譯translated by Hilda Tam Hio Man and Kit Kelen
ASM PoetryAssociation of Stories in Macao
絕句
in brief
作者：姚風
Author: Yao FengCopyright © December 2010 by Yao Feng
主編：客遠文
Editor: Kit Kelen
翻譯：譚曉汶，客遠文
Translation © December 2010 by Hilda Tam Hio Man and Kit Kelen
封面設計：Clara BrancaCover Design: Clara Branca
內頁設計：宋子江
Page Design: Song Zijiang
內頁相片：姚風
Photographs © December 2010 by Yao Feng
資助：澳門基金會Supported by the Macao Foundation
出版：澳門故事協會澳門郵政信箱1507號Published by ASMAssociation of Stories in MacaoGeneral Post Office, PO BOX 1507, [email protected]
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ISBN 978-99965-42-17-6
in
brief
6 7
at the plenary meeting
three thousand right hands are raised
at the same level
like a lawn trimmed by a mower
a spring swallow
opened its scissors tail
flew past above my arm
I gave out a sad, shrill cry
6 7
全體會議上
舉起了三千隻右手
齊刷刷的
像是割草機修剪後的草坪
一隻春天的燕子
張開剪刀
從我的手臂上方飛過
我發出一聲慘叫
8 9
her heart by men broken
though not by Jesus
she loves nobody
she keeps on writing him letters
he’s the only man
in this world for her
always up on the cross
in the state of love
8 9
她被一個個男人傷透了心
除了愛耶穌
她誰也不愛
她不停地給他寫信
對她而言，在這個世界上
只有這個男人
在十字架上永遠愛著
10 11
the master narrowed his eyes
suspended his breath in the belly
came to the wok with boiling oil
he raised his hand to the sky
as if he had grabbed a cloud
and said
the sky’s already fried
10 11
大師雙眼微合
氣沉丹田
然後走向沸騰的油鍋
大師舉手向天
好像抓住了一朵白雲
然後說
他已經油炸了天空
12 13
the world is getting warmer
the Eskimo took off his fur coat
polar bears got their fur cut too
loving animals is loving ourselves
we work day and night
to produce fridges
we need to help every penguin
to prepare for winter
12 13
地球日益變暖
愛斯基摩人脫下皮襖
北極熊也剪短了皮毛
熱愛動物，就是熱愛我們自己
我們日夜加班
製造冰箱
我們要為每一隻企鵝
準備好冬天
14 15
I see the mountains as mountains
water as water
mountains and water are religion
learn from the dust
it belongs to the earth
but in the air
it has freedom and a place to be
to lessen desire, man makes himself vast
to be a vegetarian, man makes light
to bear a loving heart
when an angry dog dashes forward
man tosses away a vegetarian dumpling
14 15
看山是山，看水是水
山水即信仰
向微塵學習，它屬於大地
卻在空氣中
獲得了自由和居所
降低欲望，人變得遼闊
吃素，人變得輕盈
心懷慈悲
一條惡狗撲過來
扔出去的是一個素包子
16 17
wheat sings in waves
heads down
regards the blaze of sickles
a flowery snake makes its escape along a wavy line
the highway sprinted from the city
cut the snake into pieces
in June, sad to review
the windscreen wipers bid endless farewells
blocking the road ahead
16 17
麥子在波浪中歌唱
低下頭顱
看見了鐮刀的鋒芒
一條花蛇沿著曲線逃逸
從城市狂奔而來的公路
把它截成數段
六月，誰讓我去復習悲傷
刮雨器不停地告別
前方擋住了去路
18 19
the can is not expired
preservatives still work
the taste buds of the tongue
have withered
knock out all teeth
to pave the slippery square
plainclothes policemen pace about
searching for the informant
an impotent man
is bent on breaking in
18 19
罐頭沒有到期
防腐劑依舊有效
舌頭上味蕾
已經凋謝
打掉所有的牙齒
鋪成光滑的廣場
便衣警察走來走去
搜尋著告密者
而一個陽痿患者
執意要打進內部
20 21
every time I hear the national anthem
my blood runs hot
before my eyes
the martyrs moving on
through the enemies’ cannon fire
‘get through the enemy’s fire, move forward!’
why is it always on our land?
why do we always have so many enemies?
20 21
每次聽到國歌奏響
我都熱血沸騰
眼前浮現
先烈們冒著敵人的炮火
前進的身影
“冒著敵人的炮火前進，前進！”
爲什麽總是在我們的土地上？
爲什麽總有這麼多敵人？
22 23
only when clouds spring up
the sky appears real
they fly over our heads
to the other side of the world
the sky appears vast
below is loneliness
22 23
一朵朵雲湧來
天空變得真實
它們飛過我們的頭頂
向地球的另一端飛去
天空顯得空曠
下面是孤單的人類
暗影
shadows
26 27
every night I looked out of the window
and saw that street lamp
lit to light others
one day it disappeared
tired in the end
it rides on a wire pole
bound for a place with no darkness
26 27
每天晚上從窗外向外望
都會看到那盞街燈
按時點燃自己
照亮別人
有一天它突然消失了
它一定是厭倦了這樣的生活
騎著電線杆
向沒有黑暗的地方奔去
28 29
famous western brands
get themselves well into China
but still often complain
about the instability of rich Chinese customers
‘They have vanished all at once
either gone abroad
or to jail.’
28 29
許多西方知名品牌進駐中國
但也時常抱怨
說中國富豪的買家群體太不穩定
“客人一下子就消失了
要不然出了國
要不然就是進了監獄。”
30 31
the Siberian tiger
floating in the cage
hadn’t stopped for a moment
actually, it had almost
gone back to the Greater Xingan Mountains
like the token long distance running
in my secondary school
every day we ran around the playground
three thousand metres
after a few months
the distance would equal
that to the place of revolution, Yan’an
30 31
沿著沒有盡頭的鐵欄
東北虎走來走去
其實它已經回到大興安嶺
就像我中學時代的象徵性長跑
每天圍操場跑三千米
幾個月後
就從北京跑到了革命聖地延安
32 33
I brought my daughter to a zoo on the weekend
more visitors than animals
she managed to take a picture
with a chimp called Dang Dang
regretfully she said,
‘the chimp didn’t let me touch his hands.’
32 33
週末，帶女兒去動物園
人比動物多
女兒終於和名叫當當的大猩猩拍了一張合影
她遺憾地說
“當當不讓我摸他的手”
34 35
fish
kept jumping out of the moon’s bowl
aiming for spots of light on the ground
aiming for the glittering bait
tear drops smashed to the ground
made wells
frogs croaked
clouds flew past
the sky died
34 35
一條條魚
從月亮的水盆中跳了出來
撲向地上的點點燈光
這些閃光的魚餌
一滴滴眼淚砸在地上
砸出一口口深井
青蛙鳴叫
亂雲飛過
天空死了
36 37
the sea is holding innumerable drops of water
someone told me
the sea can been seen through a drop of water
in the drop of water
I salvage the sunk boats, silver coins and corpses
36 37
大海裝滿無數滴水
有人告訴我
從一滴水中可以見到大海
在一滴水中
我打撈沉船、銀幣和屍體
38 39
in the ashen dusk
I gazed at the monument
a hero came down from the bas-relief
asked me for a light
in that drop of light I saw
he wanted to say something
but on second thought
decided not to
the monument was as bright as a lamp post
standing in the evening sky
since ancient times, history
is a hint of light, is a few faces
the rest of it –
boundless dark
38 39
蒼茫暮色中
我凝視著紀念碑
一個英雄，從浮雕上走下來
向我借火點煙
一點光亮下，我看見
他那張欲言又止的臉
紀念碑亮如燈柱
挺立於夜空
從古至今，歷史
就是一抹光亮，就是幾張面孔
其餘的部分
由無邊的黑暗組成
40 41
the mule who had been working hard all his life
fell sick
before he died
he sighed
‘I’ve been honest and hardworking
but the glory of an upright life
isn’t worth one night of love.’
40 41
騾子終於病倒了
彌留之際，他感嘆萬分：
作風正派，兢兢業業
但一生的榮光
抵不上一個愛情的夜晚
42 43
spring comes
to a grave
little flowers grow
Xiao Qian runs out from the grave
sees so many people wandering about
takes off her head
paints on the cheeks
spring breezes
42 43
春天來到墓園
野花幽幽綻開
小倩從墳墓中跑了出來
她看見墳墓之外
這麽多人還在徘徊
她摘下頭顱
在臉上描畫春風
44 45
he deposited youth, purity, love, health
into the bank of his era
in the end what he withdrew was
old age, slickness, sickness and hope’s lack
the rate of interest was high
women entangled in his life
used their lifelong fidelity
to torture him
44 45
他把青春、純真、愛情、健康
存入時代的銀行
最後取出來的是
衰老、圓滑、疾病和絕望
豐厚的利息是
命中註定的女人
用一生的忠誠把他折磨
46 47
every time I opened the window
I opened a wall
sky, mountains and land rose
and they knocked me down
I closed the window
opened the door
and walked away
46 47
打開窗子
就是打開了一堵牆
天空向我湧來
群山和大地把我撞擊
我關上窗子
打開門，走了出去
48 49
if I were the sky
I’d have to be vast
if I were the sea
I’d have to be deep
if I were the seed
I’d have to grow food
if I were the bald head
I would refuse a wig
48 49
如果是天空
就要遼闊
如果是大海
就要深邃
如果是種子
就要長出糧食
如果腦袋禿了
就要拒絕假髮
伴侶
another half
52 53
the world hasn’t changed
official principles still apply
the sun set
bang!an official chop
came down on the sky line
finally it was approved
I looked out of the window, it was like
a dark night gazing at another dark night
52 53
世界並沒有改變
還是公事公辦
落日“嘭”地一聲
一枚公章
蓋在了地平線上
終於批准了
我望著窗外，就像一個黑夜
望著另一個黑夜
54 55
the neck tie was invented
in a winter in Paris
at first it was for keeping warm
in the heat of summer
he felt the cold
he twisted the tie into a rope
hung from the beam
to make a colourful circle
he said he must die in person
he was his body
by whatever means necessary
he would go to his funeral
54 55
發明領帶
是在巴黎的冬天
當初是為了保暖
在炎熱的夏天
他卻不停地顫慄
他把領帶擰成一根繩子
在屋樑上
懸成一個繽紛的圓
他說，必須親自去死
他是他的遺體
無論如何
他要參加自己的葬禮
56 57
a road to the shoe shop
selling all kinds of shoes
but not roads
each pair
is waiting for an appropriate pair of feet
shoes die for feet
they die on roads
please let me choose a pair for you
nothing to do with roads
not to do with trudging
56 57
一條路通向鞋店
店裏出售各式各樣的鞋
但不出售道路
每一雙鞋
都在等待一對合適的腳
鞋為腳而死
一雙雙鞋死在路上
讓我為你挑選一雙鞋吧
但無關道路
也無關跋涉
58 59
the director said it is not easy to play the role of a hero
because it is stereotypical
and among the kind and humble faces
it’s easy to find one who’ll play the part of the traitor
58 59
導演說，英雄不好演
很容易公式化
而在一張張善良樸實的面孔中
很容易找到漢奸的扮演者
60 61
gorgeous fireworks
shoot up into the lonely sky
shine on the distance between you and me
they shine on the height of that gulf
60 61
一朵朵絢麗的煙花
升上寂寞的天空
照亮了深淵的高度
照亮了你我的距離
62 63
on the mountainside
where trees were cut down
I planted a tree and an acre of carrots
and waited for a rabbit under the tree
I wasn’t waiting for a person
I was really waiting for a rabbit
62 63
在樹被砍掉的山坡
我種下一棵樹和許多紅蘿蔔
然後“守株待兔”
我等的不是人
真的是一隻兔子
64 65
in China a pangolin
was afraid of cooks and gourmets
so he made a hole and went through the kitchen’s floor
stones and magma
and in the end
came to the other side of the world
now he’s working in a western restaurant in New York
and has applied for a green card
64 65
一隻中國的穿山甲
害怕廚子和美食家
因此鑽過廚房的地面
穿過石頭和岩漿
最後抵達了
地球的另一端
現在，他在紐約一家餐廳打工
並申請了綠卡
66 67
what’s behind your sunshine
is my dark night
the Earth spins, changing sleeping position
that won’t change the dream’s direction
terribly thirsty, a traveler from afar
presses on by lip
a cup floating in the sea
attempts to hold all
because there are groups of fish
jumping from the sea surface
in the dream
66 67
你的陽光後面
是我的黑夜
地球旋轉，改變睡姿
並不能改變夢的方向
焦渴，一個來自遠方的客人
還在唇上跋涉
一個杯子在海上漂浮
想裝下整個大海
因為夢境
有魚群躍出海面
68 69
the swallows had built their nests
under the roof of the police college
perhaps they knew it was safe
early in the morning, a baby swallow
fell down from the nest, dead
before its wings grew
the sky didn’t exist
68 69
燕子在警察學校的屋簷下築巢
它們或許知道這裏安全
清晨，一隻雛燕從巢中跌落在地
摔死了
它不知道，在翅膀長出之前
天空並不存在
70 71
my ambition
is to be an architect
to build a three-hundred-floor government building
the officials would have to go in and out in a hurry
because there would be no toilet inside
the toilet
would be built in the slum area in the city’s south
70 71
我的理想
是做一個建築師
是建一座三百層的政府大樓
官員們匆忙地進進出出
因為裏面沒有廁所
廁所
建在低矮的南區
72 73
my uncle came to visit me from his hometown
holding the bowls
we squatted on the doorstep
and ate the noodles with soy bean paste
my legs felt sour
before I could finish half of the noodles
I stood up and sat at the dining table
uncle was still squatting there
hulu hulu until he had finished the bowl
72 73
三叔從鄉下來看我
我們端著海碗
蹲在門檻上吃炸醬麵
還沒吃到一半，我的腿就酸了
我站起來，坐到飯桌前
三叔還蹲在那兒
呼嚕呼嚕，直到把面吃完
江南
river south
76 77
when your throat grows an Adam’s apple
you wear a tie
and take up your place in society
where people are well-groomed
you will meet a well-trained fighter
every time he will leave you
invisible internal injuries
76 77
當喉嚨長出喉結
你打著領帶
進入了社會生活
在衣冠楚楚的地方
遇到的是訓練有素的打手
給你留下
看不見的內傷
78 79
at the messy construction site
they squatted
swallowing their rough meals
faces buried in their bowls
they don’t have faces
they are low, humble like wild grass
keep close to the ground to survive
78 79
雜亂的建築工地
他們蹲在地上
吞嚥著粗糙的午飯
飯碗遮住了他們的臉
他們是沒有面孔的人
低矮，卑微，像野草一樣
緊貼著地面生存
80 81
the potato hibernating in the cellar
sprouts fingers
to conduct the music of spring’s combo
a strain of grey hair dyed black
the stumbles of a white elephant
we’ve used death
to invent a verb
an ox sent to the slaughter house
is ruminating tears
80 81
地窖裏過冬的土豆
伸出有毒的手指
指揮著春天的樂隊
一根被染黑的霜髮
絆倒了一頭白象
我們用死亡
發明了動詞
一頭被運往屠宰場的老牛
反芻自己的眼淚
82 83
your eyes were the sea
vast, deep, blue
the wind came, blew some waves
like white light
blossoming upon
the coral and sunken boats below
82 83
你的眼睛像一片海洋
遼闊，湛藍，深邃
風來了，掀起陣陣波浪
如一朵朵白色的燈盞
照亮了
下面的珊瑚與沉船
84 85
drop one’s cleaver and become a Buddha
the ceremony’s too easy
I carry a clay Buddhist idol on my back
and swim across the sea of bitterness
once arrived
what remains is flesh
84 85
放下屠刀，立地成佛
這個儀式過於簡單
背泥菩薩泅渡苦海
抵達了彼岸
剩下了肉身
86 87
having taken off what I can
my net weight is seventy kilograms
this figure concerns only the flesh
has nothing to do with spirit
my heart doesn’t have net weight
but the gross kind
because it has to include the darkness
because it has to include those ruins
86 87
脫掉一切可以脫掉的
我的淨重是七十公斤
這只是肉體
與心靈無關
而心靈沒有淨重
只有毛重
因為要加上黑暗
因為要加上廢墟
88 89
in the centre of a square the artist
set a mighty bronze equestrian statue
it belongs neither to kings
nor generals –
it’s for the people
everyone who comes to the square
wants to ride on it
everyone who rides on it
looks majestic
the poses they strike
are either like those of kings or of generals
88 89
藝術家在廣場中央
豎起一座威武的銅馬像
既不屬於帝王
也不屬於將軍
藝術家想讓它屬於人民
每一個來到廣場的人
都想騎上去
每一個騎上的人
都顯得威風凜凜
擺出的姿勢
不是帝王，就是將軍
90 91
having put on the fur coat
I don’t look like a wolf when
I’m flat on the ground
I look like a sheep asleep
in the dream I came close to you
crazily ate the grass on your body
snow was falling more heavily
but whatever it was had fallen on me
I couldn’t see
90 91
披上皮大衣
即使趴在地上，也不像狼
我像綿羊一樣睡著了
夢中走近你
狂吃身體上的青草
雪越下越大
但落在我身上的雪
我一點也看不見
92 93
in the café
we talked about one of our friends’ death
death hasn’t stopped me from putting a lump of sugar
into my coffee, it smelt good
I couldn’t imagine my ending
outside the window the dark night brought the moon
the old silver for ancestors
remained the same as yesterday
like a piece of ice which wouldn’t melt
but glittered
92 93
在咖啡廳
我們談到一位朋友的死亡
死亡，沒有阻止我把一塊方糖
放進咖啡，芳香彌漫
我無法想到自己的結局
窗外，黑夜端來月亮
祭祀的古老銀器
它和昨日一樣
像不會溶化的冰，光芒閃爍
94 95
a clock on the wall
the donkey blinkered pulls and grinds
grain ground diminished
I can only hear the fish tank in the living room
the fish use their heads
to strike the sea’s horizon
sleepless night
everything comes silent still
in the stillness ceaseless noise
94 95
牆上的鐘錶上
驢子戴著眼罩，還在拉磨
而糧食卻越磨越少
客廳裏，魚缸發出巨大的轟鳴
倖存的魚
用頭在撞擊著遠方的大海
無眠之夜
萬物歸於沉寂
沉寂中有不絕的聲響
96 97
in the county town
I saw the man climbing
onto the end of the bridge
he gave out a cry
and jumped
what remained were a crowd
of pointing fingers and talk
he never came out of the water again
the whirlpool in the centre
was like a lifebelt
96 97
在縣城
眼看著那個男人爬上橋頭
大罵了一聲什麼
就跳了下去
只留下黑壓壓的指手畫腳
和七嘴八舌
而他一直沒有上來
水中央的漩渦
看起來像一個救生圈
98 99
at the Red Market
under the scarlet lights
the fat hawker grabbed a frog
skinned it
while chatting with his customer
so deft
as if he were taking off his gloves
98 99
在紅街市
在猩紅的燈光下
肥胖的小販抓住青蛙
一邊和顧客聊天
一邊剝皮
麻利得就像脫下手套
牢獄
prison
102 103
the news of death
sent by cellphone
on the way to the funeral home
a traffic jam
102 103
手機傳來了
噩耗
去殯儀館的路上
堵車
104 105
the sea was choked up with emotions
but it wouldn’t say ‘I’ll love you
till the sea goes dry and the rocks dissolve’
the sea would only stand on tiptoe
to the height of the lips
and hug the young woman
on the reef
104 105
大海心潮澎湃
但不會說海枯石爛
大海只會踮起腳尖
在嘴唇的高度
把礁石上的少女
抱在懷裏
106 107
Fidel Castro quit smoking
when he was seventy six
he said
it isn’t for health
his health was no problem
he could still make a speech for three hours
without having a sip of water
he did it for the people
for the country
I’ve been wanting to quit for years too
just never found a reason
106 107
卡斯特羅戒煙了
七十六歲的他說
這不是為了健康
他的健康沒問題
依舊可以連續演講三個小時
而不喝一口水
他是為了人民
為了國家
多少年以來我也想戒煙
卻一直沒有找到
戒煙的理由
108 109
the car crossed the Chang Jiang Bridge
I saw the far place swallowed by emptiness
river poured into the sea
a friend in the car said,
‘every month someone
jumps into the river’
I felt so gratified
that I haven’t yet stored up enough sadness
haven’t yet found the reason to jump
108 109
車過長江大橋
看見遠方被虛無吞噬
江水向著大海奔流
同車的朋友說
“每個月都有跳江的”
而我多麼慶倖
我還沒有積攢足夠的悲傷
還沒有找到跳下去的理由
110 111
behind the mask
under the thong
a hairy donkey
a cloud of darkness
110 111
在眼罩背後
在皮鞭之下
有一頭毛驢
有一團黑暗
112 113
how great it is to live in this age
with the invention of Viagra
of breast implants
moon travel
human cloning
a master said, ‘to swim from the sea of sorrows,
uselessness is better’
112 113
慶幸吧！我們生活在一個偉大的時代
一個發明了偉哥的時代
一個用矽膠豐胸的時代
一個登上月球的時代
一個人克隆人的年代
而大師說，做一個無用之人
方能脫離苦海
114 115
behind me, there was always a shadow
wrapping up my profile
I didn’t know who was filling it in
or what had been written
from my fickle future, I presume
that there was an illiterate line
being edited over and over again
by a masked person
until I fired at the shadow
114 115
我的身後，總跟著一個陰影
包裹著我的檔案
我不知道誰在填寫我的檔案
也不知道寫了些什麼
從我搖擺不定的前程推測
我在檔案裏是一個病句
被蒙面的人反復修改
直到我向陰影開了一槍
116 117
‘travel is the traveller’
to leave out travelling like Fernando Pessoa
cancel air accidents, shipwrecks, car crashes
delete suspicious passport checking
disperse the crowd
shoot to death the traitor who’s speaking
a foreign language
leave space in luggage for love letters
life’s the same everywhere
living elsewhere
means life’s changes are where you are
push the window open, let the fly out
and the world in
116 117
“旅行就是旅行者自己”
像佩索阿那樣省略遠行
取消飛機失事、輪船翻沉、汽車相撞
刪除審視護照的目光
趕走擁擠的人群
槍斃外語中的叛徒
騰出旅行箱來保存情書
到處都是一樣的生活
生活在別處
就是在原地改變生活
推開窗子，讓蒼蠅飛出去
讓世界湧進來
118 119
on Mountain Huangshan, searching for
the heart-linked-to-heart locket
left behind twenty years ago
no trace could be found
as with the twilight of feelings
locked up in the wind
in the sea of clouds
only the greeting pine
waved at me
you kept asking
if the greeting pine was real
118 119
在黃山，尋找
二十年前留下的連心鎖
卻不見蹤影
就像那段蒼茫的感情
已鎖進了風中
只有那棵迎客松在雲海中
向我招手
而你不停地問
迎客松是真的嗎？
120 121
in the main street in B city
grand cars can often be seen
curtains on the car windows
they speed along
inside shadowy secrets
in some countries
car windows aren’t allowed to be covered
not even when you want to make love inside
perhaps they are particular about openness
just like here
people live in places
where all is very visible
120 121
在 B 城的主要大街，常常看見豪華轎車
懸掛著窗簾飛馳而過
裏面載著陰影般的秘密
在一些國家，法律不允許遮擋車窗
哪怕在裏面做愛
也許他們講究透明度
就像在這裏，人民都活在明處
122 123
autumn has called off the cicadas’ work
days are getting cooler
in this crazed casino town
leaves blown down by the autumn wind
look like chips for gambling
Russian roulette follows the Earth
rotates day and night
in the gambling town, everywhere is gold,
the only things that grow from the boss’s gums
are gold teeth
122 123
秋天取消了蟬的任務
一天比一天涼
風吹落樹葉，在眼前飛旋
賭場的籌碼
俄羅斯輪盤不分晝夜
緊緊跟隨地球自轉
賭城遍地都是金子
老闆的牙床上睡滿了金牙
隱喻
metaphor
126 127
in 1898
Portugal abolished capital punishment
the reason
is that no one wanted to be executioner
compared with Vasco da Gama’s great deeds
this kind of historical detail
gets more of my respect
I thew away the steamed bun stained with blood
126 127
1898年
葡萄牙廢除了死刑
原因是
沒有人願做劊子手
讀到這樣的歷史細節
我扔掉了手中的血饅頭
它比起達·迦馬的航海壯舉
更讓我心生敬意
128 129
I tugged back a horse in a gale
patted its back
treated the yellowish drafts of poems as night grass
the horse snorted often
happy, no worries
night fell more silent
on the horse’s neck
a bushy mane grew
128 129
我從疾風中拉回一匹馬
我拍拍馬背
把枯黃的詩稿當作夜草
馬不時打著響鼻
快樂，無憂無慮
夜愈加靜寂
在馬的身上長出濃密的鬃毛
130 131
the square was wet, the dusk looked bright
a high-pressure fire truck fought off the demonstrators
no bleeding, no life-taking
it was a tender suppression
but it’s better to drive that truck to the countryside
let the water spurt into the sky
how clear the fountain is
130 131
廣場濕漉漉，黃昏顯得明亮
高壓水車擊退了示威者
不流血，不危及性命
一場溫柔的鎮壓
但最好把高壓水車開到郊外
讓水流噴向蔚藍的天空
多麼清澈的噴泉
132 133
a dream, a trip
you’ll run up against a wall wherever you go
there are walls everywhere in this world
he took off his pyjamas, put on his bib
carried a can of paint
and drew a door on every wall
132 133
一場睡夢，一場旅行
不管走到哪裏都會碰壁
世界到處都是牆壁
他脫下睡衣，穿上工作服
拎起一桶油漆
在每一道牆壁上畫出一扇門
134 135
the withered branch of winter
supports the dusky sky
the young woman coming towards me
wears a broken mirror on her face
the old man strolling
leaves messy footprints in the snow
a flying plastic bag filled with wind high up
combing the chimney’s black hair
134 135
冬季的樹枝
舉起灰色的天空
迎面走來的少婦
臉是一面破碎的鏡子
佝僂的老人
在雪地上留下零亂的腳印
煙囪冒出縷縷黑髮
飛翔的塑膠袋裝滿了風
136 137
sitting in the top floor café
I saw a piece of cloud break the glass
and float in
I stirred my coffee
wondering if I should float
with the cloud
it was so white
like an angel
136 137
坐在頂樓的咖啡廳
看見一朵雲打碎玻璃
飄了進來
我攪拌著咖啡
琢磨著是否跟這朵雲
一起飄走
它如此潔白，像純潔的天使
138 139
I wished to stay calm and free of desire
learn to respect all living things
so I tried to have vegetables at Pou Tai Temple
I don’t understand
why everything they served
was made into the shapes of chickens and ducks
138 139
清心寡欲
學習尊重所有的生命
嘗試去菩提寺吃齋
不明白端上來的素食
爲什麽
要做成了雞鴨的形狀
140 141
in history, the Yellow Peril is widely known
the westerners say Chinese multiply like ants
and that is irresponsible
this censure hasn’t affected the Chinese breeding
if it weren’t for revolutions, famines, wars,
plagues, popular movements, earthquakes,
floods, ligations, mine disasters,
the Chinese population
would be more than it is today
we know that the only way
to keep life going
through endless natural and man-made disasters
is to breed and breed
140 141
歷史上，黃禍論甚囂塵上
西方人說，中國人像螞蟻一樣繁殖
是對人類不負責的表現
這種指責，沒有影響中國人的生殖力
如果不是革命不是饑荒不是戰亂
不是瘟疫不是運動不是地震
不是洪水不是結紮不是礦難
中國的人口
比現在的還要多
我們知道，連綿的天災人禍中
只有不停地繁殖生命
才能夠延續生命
142 143
the storm is coming
like hurried knocks on a door
I remember one rainy night of childhood –
the man taken away by the police
hasn’t yet come back today
thunder roared
the lightning rod stood silent
I haven’t yet expressed my fear
142 143
暴雨驟然而至
如急促的敲門聲
我想起童年的雨夜
那個被黑雨衣帶走的人
至今沒有回來
雷電轟鳴
避雷針沉默不語
我還沒有說出我的恐懼
144 145
a moment like that
is like this
a flower
lifted by the spring sedan chair
this is
to make the road jerk
a shaking blaze
sitting on a piece of soft lampwick
waiting for
the night of complete darkness
144 145
這樣的時刻
是這樣的
一朵花
被春天的轎子抬著
為的是
讓路顛簸起來
一朵晃動的火焰
坐在燈芯上
等待著
徹底的黑夜
146 147
I climbed to the tower and looked into the distance
People’s Square is really big
those crowds moving around
are small
146 147
登上城樓，放眼望去
人民廣場確實很大
那些走動的人群
確實很小
148 149
a farmer left his remote mountain
came to the city
but returned shortly after
he’d been insulted in the city
and couldn’t stay a moment longer
the tiger knew about this
he took off his fur
and let the farmer wear it
the farmer raised his head
took steps like the tiger’s
went back to the city again
148 149
一個農夫走出深山
來到城市
但很快就回來了
他在城市受盡欺辱
呆不下去了
老虎得知這個消息
脫下自己的皮毛
讓農夫穿上
農夫仰首邁著虎步
又走進了城市
晚景
last years
152 153
our emperor travelling in Europe
was invited to watch the ballet Swan Lakehappy
he awarded them three thousand liangback in his country
he couldn’t forget about it
so he ordered eunuchs
to go all over China
to choose the ballet dancers
from pretty girls
with three-inch-feet
and so was formed
the royal ballet ensemble
152 153
吾皇出遊歐羅巴
應邀觀賞芭蕾舞劇《天鵝湖》
龍顏大悅
賞銀三千兩
返國後
仍念念不忘
遂傳旨太監
奔赴華夏各地
于窈窕三寸金蓮者中
甄選芭蕾舞娘
組建
皇家芭蕾舞團
154 155
the sea, a blue tiger
roars recklessly
he wants to get out of the big cage
cage is still cage
even if it’s big
in a city far away
a man who has never seen sea
turns on the tap
thinking that in this way
he can be connected with the sea
154 155
大海，藍色的老虎
肆意咆哮
他想衝出巨大的籠子
籠子，不因為巨大
而不是籠子
而在那個遙遠的城市
一個從沒見過大海的人
徹夜擰開水龍頭
想以此
接通與大海的聯繫
156 157
after the performance of the circus clown
a monkey came onto the stage
his performance was to count banknotes
like a calculator
he finished counting a thousand RMB
of course, it was fake money
156 157
馬戲團的小丑表演之後
跑出來一隻猴子
表演的節目是數錢
他像計算器一樣
數完一千張人民幣
甚至挑出了一張假鈔
158 159
very often, a magnetic voice
gently tugged me into a church
the sacred sermon
knitted words into a strand of light
that urged me to look
at a secret image, a bloody scene
I lowered my eyes under that spell
my flesh wrapped soul couldn’t fly
perhaps walking is a life’s task
sky over the spire, higher, farther
oh God, King of the Sky
just the name makes me squat
and I hear the organ sound more clearly
for a wedding or a funeral
these weddings and funerals on earth
already too late to dodge
158 159
時常，一種磁性的聲音
把我輕輕推入教堂
聖潔的佈道
把詞語織成一道光芒，引我仰望
一個神秘的形象，鮮血淋漓
向我垂下呼喚的目光
我的靈魂被肉身包裹，不會飛翔
或許行走才是一生的任務
天空越過教堂的塔尖，更高更遠
上帝啊，上天的帝王
這樣的命名讓我跪在地上
我更清晰地聽見管風琴的鳴響
婚禮或者升天彌撒
這些人世間的紅白喜事
讓我躲閃不及
160 161
a bird doesn’t drop itself from the sky
but a plane does
before boarding, I bought the insurance
like making a will
the sky is beautiful, but not good for living
in the sky
I missed the human world
the pilot reported, we were flying across Afghanistan
I hadn’t thought of the Taliban
or of bin Laden
what I thought of were those named in my will
160 161
鳥不會自己從天上掉下來
但飛機會
登機之前，我買好保險
就像留下了遺囑
天空美麗，但不宜居住
在天上
我惦念的是人間
機長報告說，正在飛越阿富汗
我沒有想到塔利班
或者比·拉登
我想的，都是與遺囑有關的人
162 163
we ate at a food stall on the street
and saw a cook
appear out from the dim kitchen
he rubbed his hands on his oil-stained apron
lit a cigarette
and inhaled deeply
eyes dazed
looking into the distance
with sadness
as customers
we could only eat and drink
who would care
about the cook’s painful wounds
or his place faraway?
162 163
我們坐在街邊的大排檔吃飯
看見一個廚子
從陰暗的廚房閃了出來
他在油蹟斑斑的圍裙上擦了擦手
然後點燃一根煙
狠狠地吸著
目光迷茫地望著遠方
神情充滿了悲傷
作為食客
我們大快朵頤
又有誰會關心
一個廚子的創痛和遠方？
164 165
don’t know whether
my butterfly loving friends
believe in love
love is often harmful
sometimes, I admire them
they pick out morality and discipline from their rice bowls
there’s only the meat of instinct remaining
every day is Mardi Gras
‘they live like animals never on heat’
they don’t care about breaking hearts
164 165
不知道那些喜歡惹蝶的朋友
是否相信愛情
因爲愛情常常會是傷害
有時候，他們令人羨慕
他們從飯碗中剔出倫理和戒律
只留下本能的肉
每一天都是狂歡節
永遠發情的牲口
不知道心碎
166 167
don’t live in a mirror
I don’t want to see you behind
take away the mercury
and turn the mirror into glass
no, no glass
use a piece of hard sunshine
to break the glass
walk out and there’s the cliff
at the edge of the cliff is a sky more vast
166 167
別生活在鏡子裏
我不想從你的後面看你
抽掉水銀
把鏡子變成一面玻璃
不，玻璃也不要
用一塊堅硬的陽光
把玻璃打碎
走出去是懸崖
懸崖邊，是更遼闊的天空
168 169
for immortality, for a tree
to continue death’s journey
in the graveyard, those alive grow pines
death is rich soil
how green those pines are
168 169
為了永生，為了讓一棵樹
繼續死者的旅程
在墓園，活著的人栽下一棵棵松柏
死亡是肥沃的土壤
一棵棵松柏青翠欲滴
170 171
the plane shook like someone
with Parkinson’s disease
I heard the pilot:
‘the plane is now passing through turbulence
please fasten your seat belts.’
under the air vast Siberia
a place for every type of exiled political criminal
Lenin and Stalin were sent there once
but they didn’t die there
they had to bring their bodies back to Moscow
so as to save the ice in Siberia
in order to freeze more corpses
170 171
飛機突然像帕金森患者一樣顫抖
我聽到機長的聲音：
“飛機正穿越氣流，請系好安全帶！”
氣流之下，遼闊的西伯利亞
各種政治犯的流放地
列寧和史達林曾在這裏流放
但他們沒有死在此地
他們得以把自己的身體帶到莫斯科
為的是騰出西伯利亞的冰雪
冷藏更多的屍體
172 173
Lisbon, an after-rain evening
in Jardim da Estrela
in the wet petals
he and a girl called ‘Yuka Ezure’
met
she was from Japan
her sakura smile
made the gun go off at Marco Polo Bridge
a sudden sound as from afar
172 173
里斯本，一個雨後的黃昏
在星星公園
在濕漉漉的花瓣間
他和一個叫久香的姑娘
不期而遇
她來自日本
她那櫻花一樣的微笑
讓他耳邊的盧溝橋槍聲
突然變得遙遠
宿命
fate
176 177
the old man with the pets
used a black cloth
to cover the bird cage
and he rocked it
he said, this is like being in the sky
in the jerking darkness
the bird can fly
176 177
養鳥的老人用一塊黑色的布
圍住鳥籠子
然後搖來搖去
他說，這是在模仿天空
在顛簸的黑暗中
鳥兒可以飛翔
178 179
the mute also wanted to join the choir
he opened his mouth, but had no voice
facing the mirror
he practised mouthing the words
the voice isn’t important
but the words mouthed
should be the same as those
of the choir
178 179
啞巴，也要參加合唱團
他張開嘴，但沒有聲音
面對鏡子
他訓練自己的口型
重要的不是聲音
是合唱團一致的口型
180 181
an apple too sweet
would grow worms inside
sadness is necessary
to make love complete
raindrops on phone wires
became tears of a thousand miles
those acres of roses
are opium now
180 181
蘋果太甜
懷裏就會生出蟲子
如果讓愛情完整
就必須憂傷
電話線上的雨滴
變成了一千里的眼淚
三百畝的玫瑰
已經改種罌粟
182 183
at the Cristo Corcovado in Rio de Janeiro
God stretches his arms through clouds
ready to hug the world
ready to hug everyone
in the slum not far
sunshine
reflects the rays of poverty
God up above just looks over
says nothing
does nothing
he’s said what should be said
done what should be done
182 183
在裏約熱內盧的耶穌山上
神在雲中伸展雙臂
準備擁抱世界
準備擁抱每一個人
不遠處的貧民窟
在陽光下
反射出貧窮的光芒
神只是高高地俯視
什麼也沒有說
什麼也沒有做
該說的，神已經說過
該做的，神已經做過
184 185
sparrows need the sky
but they don’t soar
they jump from the roofs to the street
nimble for food
alarmed, they hide from people and cars
their grey feathers
confused with dust
they’re the birds closest to humans
but there’s only the sky and earth
to raise them
cages can provide for animals, birds
even humans
it’s difficult to feed the sparrows
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麻雀需要天空
但不會翱翔雲天
它們在從屋簷跳到地上
一邊小心地覓食
一邊躲避著行人和車輛
灰頭土臉的它們，常常混同於塵土
它們是離人類最近的鳥類
但只有天空和大地
可以養活它們
籠子可以養活許多動物、鳥類，甚至人
但難以養活麻雀
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‘all crows are black’
is a Chinese saying
crows dyed black with money
were once harshly criticized
accused
now, black swans would also like
to be the largest of crows
186 187
“天下烏鴉一般黑”
作為中國式的隱喻
被舊社會染黑了羽翼的烏鴉
曾狠狠地被批判
被控訴
如今，黑天鵝都想變成
一隻最大的烏鴉
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early morning in Florence
I had breakfast on the third floor of a restaurant
eyes skipped the bread and butter on the table
paused on the hydrangea by the window
then further
I saw on the opposite balcony
an old couple
morning shone on their faces
their slow hands
shook the sheet in the wind
shook open the flowers they grew
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翡冷翠的清晨
我坐在三樓的餐廳吃早餐
目光越過眼前的麵包和黃油
停留在窗前的繡球花上
再往前，看見對面的陽臺上
有一對年老的夫婦
晨光照在他們被時間蹂躪的臉上
遲緩的手
在風中抖開床單
抖開他們在上面種滿的鮮花
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actually, he’s not sick
he’s so healthy that he hasn’t forgotten a thing
for example, not knowing from where
he found a police cap
he put it on
and at once feels the might
his body used to be hunchbacked
now it’s straight
he comes to the street
glares at pedestrians
sees who would take wild steps
he suddenly has the impulse
to arrest somebody
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其實，他根本沒病
他健康得什麼都沒忘記
比如，不知從哪裏
他找到一頂警察的大簷帽
戴在了頭上
就立即有了威武的感覺
平時佝僂的身軀也挺立起來
他來到大街上
死死盯著往來的人群
看誰敢輕舉妄動
他突然有了抓人的衝動
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Montesquieu said: humans can only
live like humans in distress
actually it’s the opposite, many end up
living like animals in distress
perhaps, the way Montesquieu understands distress
is different from mine
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孟德斯鳩說：人在苦難中
才活得像個人
其實恰恰相反，不知有多少人
在苦難中活成了動物
也許，孟德斯鳩所理解的苦難
和我所理解的苦難
並不一樣
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an axe lying on the ground
is like a child asleep
quietly
glittering mild gloss
an axe is only an axe
when it hacks a head
or a tree
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一把斧子躺在地上
就像一個睡去的孩子
安靜地
閃爍著柔和的光澤
斧子只有在舉起來
砍向一顆頭顱
或者一棵樹的時候
才是一把斧子
196 197
the formula of tears needs one part flowing water
but how much salt
should sadness or happiness dissolve
to produce proper tears?
how many unforgettable moments
should tears record?
and how much tearwater should accumulate
to rush from the eyes
over the body to deepen the blue of the sea?
you once put a part of flowing water
into an old bottle
regarded it as new wind
and so you sold it to me
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眼淚的配方，需有一截流水
但悲傷，或者快樂
要溶解多少鹽
才能製造出合格的淚水
淚水，記住多少難忘的時刻
要積攢多少重量
才會奪眶而出
漫過身體，加深大海的藍
而你，曾把一截流水
裝進舊瓶子
當成新酒向我出售
198 199
the whole river
the whole land
placed in hands
he stuck the land
and the river together
beat and rubbed
at last he chose the most barren part
to mold the kind face of Guanyin
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整條河流
整個大地
都被放在了手中
他把大地和河流
糅合在一起
摔打，揉捏
最後，他選擇最貧瘠的部分
塑出觀世音的慈顏
遠方
distance
202 203
the cross on the pope’s chest
is the same as his face
glittering
this is the sign
or even art
made of pure silver
inlayed with gems
beautiful patterns
twist and make a garden
how delicate the cross is
so delicate there’s no suffering
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主教胸前的十字架
和他的臉一樣
閃閃發光
這是標誌
也是藝術品
純銀製作
寶石鑲嵌
美麗的花紋
纏繞成花園
多麼精美的十字架
精美得沒有一點苦難
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in the centre of the blue and white porcelain plate
a barbecued pigeon
it retains its flying pose
beside it is spring
a carved white radish flower
blossoms
if spring is a tool, then
‘the breath of flight and the breath of death
are more or less the same’
so the woman poet said
204 205
青花瓷盤的中央
一隻紅燒乳鴿
依舊保持飛翔的姿態
身旁，一朵雕出來的蘿蔔花
正在盛放
如果春天是道具，那麽
飛翔的氣息和死亡的氣息
是相似的
一位女詩人如是說
206 207
seeing the emperor
everyone knelt
but I bravely stood up
to get in a better kneeling spot
in front of the others’ knees
206 207
見到皇帝
人人都跪了下來
我卻勇敢地站了起來
為了跑到別人的前面
跪下來
208 209
I give you August fruit
scent of death
it’s torn inside
but the seeds kept their virginity
this tidy and intact heritage
please eat the juicy fruit
but return
the hard seed
to the mud
208 209
送你一枚八月的果實
死亡飄香
它已在裏面成熟
但保留著處女的種子
這微小而完整的遺產
請你吃掉多汁的果肉
把那堅硬的核
還給我
還給泥濘的肉體
210 211
the reason to go out with a group of oldies
is to feel young
no surprises during the trip
faces are similar everywhere
buildings are similar everywhere
life is boring everywhere
I can’t even avoid coca cola
in a faraway village
at the end of the trip
I see you, I see you open a fan
the prettiest scenery of the trip
210 211
和一群老人出行
無非是讓自己感覺年輕
旅行沒有驚喜
到處都是差不多的面孔
到處都是一樣的建築
到處都是乏味的生活
甚至在偏遠的山村
也無法躲避一罐可口可樂
在旅途的終點
遇到你，遇到你打開一把扇子
打開了旅行中最亮麗的風景
212 213
the glacier disappears
the sea floods the city
those fittest survive
I grow scales, gills and fins
go back to live in the sea
observing discipline and obeying the law
the big fish eat the small ones
I eat mainly small fish
sometimes shrimp
I need them neither steamed
nor stewed
the sea becomes barren
there’s a shortage of food
as today
I swim to the South Pole
but can’t find much there
a sperm whale comes to me
and asks as a compatriot,
‘Have you eaten?’
212 213
冰川消失
大海淹沒城市
適者生存
我長出鱗鰓鰭
重返大海生活
遵紀守法——
大魚吃小魚
我以小魚為主
偶爾輔以明蝦
但無需清蒸
或紅燒
大海貧瘠，糧食短缺
就像今天
我潛遊至南極
但所獲不多
一條抹香鯨遊到面前
如同胞一般問我
“吃了嗎？”
214 215
brave, gained exploits in fights,
doesn’t smoke, drinks once in a while
a vegetarian
a bit squeamish
but faithful in love
doesn’t have extramarital relations
for women
this adds up to an ideal man
his name is Hitler
214 215
勇敢，在戰鬥中立過功
不吸煙，偶爾喝點啤酒
吃素
有點神經質
但對愛情絕對忠誠
沒有婚外情
對女人來說
這算是一個理想男人了
他是希特勒
216 217
learn to love something useless
looking up at the stars and moon
and then head down
the moon doesn’t know its uses
it shines on people’s faces
but never caters to their expressions
it never fears, it’s somebody’s cold sweat
in the axeman’s pocket
there isn’t a silver coin made by the moon
it won’t let the gourmands’ night feasts fatten
thin pure light
can embrace all mountains and rivers, cities and fields
actually uselessness completes you
‘the moon has its waning and waxing’
that’s all that mortals see
I lower my head to make the moon higher
but the moon shining on me
renders me more useless space
216 217
學習熱愛無用的事物
仰望星辰與明月
然後，在月光中低下頭顱
明月，並不知道自己的用處
它照在人間的臉上
但從不迎合任何人的表情
從不恐懼，月光是誰的一身冷汗
劊子手的口袋裏
沒有一枚月亮鑄造的銀幣
不讓饕餮的夜宴養肥自己
清瘦的輝光
卻可盡攬山河、城鎮與田野
其實，你永遠在無用中圓滿
月有陰晴圓缺
不過是來自塵世的凝望
低下頭，增加月亮的高度
而月光
在我的身上，擴大著無用的面積
218 219
my painter friend
back from the anarchist Proudhon’s
painted white on a piece of white cloth
the white on white
place with no governance
a place where the trees are taller than trees
a painting is like a negative vote
but it won’t cancel out the king
the Republican and the Democratic parties
in the noisy television
the bills to be passed meet with the eraser
so my painter friend
on the white on the white
painted white
218 219
我的畫家朋友
從無政府主義者蒲魯東那裏歸來
在白色的畫布上畫上了一片白色
白色上的白色
一個沒有政府的地方
一個樹比樹還高的地方
一幅畫就像是一張反對票
但不會取消皇帝
不會取消共和黨，不會取消民主黨
嘈雜的電視機裏
法案已經被橡皮通過了
於是，我的畫家朋友
在白色上的白色
又抹上了一層白色
220 221
not a change for fifty years, no way
a face used for fifty years
flesh and facial expressions go flabby
that makes me look kind
rage of puberty, which has passed its expiry date
turns into liver-qi stagnation
taking the Chinese medicine doctor’s advice
I swallow the dragon tea pills
tight fists gradually loosen
burst into two blossoms
using the telescope to bring the distance closer
and snap the survey
mountains hit my head
pain cries loudly
the sky is a muffler
absorbing all kinds of sounds
220 221
五十年不變，不可能
一張臉用了五十年
皮肉和表情皆已鬆弛
這讓我顯得和善
青春期的憤怒，已過了保鮮期
變成肝鬱氣滯
遵中醫囑，吞服龍膽瀉肝丸
緊攥的拳頭漸漸鬆開了
綻放成兩朵鮮花
用望遠鏡拉近遠方，折斷了眺望
群山撞向頭顱
痛大聲呼喊
而天空像巨大的消音器
吸收了所有的聲音
222 223
‘the tragedy of Princess Diana
lies in the lack
of proper creativity’
Camilla chatted with her friends
as she looked to the other side of the lawn
Prince Charles looked up from his ruddy cheeks
came forward dragging a horse
but they looked like
two horses
222 223
“戴安娜王妃的悲劇
在於缺少
應有的想像力”
卡美拉一邊和友人閒聊
一邊向草地的另一邊張望
查理斯王子昂著紅潤的臉
牽著一匹馬走來
但看起來像是兩匹馬
