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Module Two Assignment
For Ikon Institute
Advanced Diploma of Transpersonal
Art Therapy
QLDTAT10 Student Cohort
The Apollonian and Dionysian Battle Within
by Rebekah Copas
student number IKO00000YT
The Apollonian and Dionysian
Battle WithinAssignment Instructions:
Over a few weeks, observe the Apollonian and Dionysian drives and decisions that you make. Note these in your journal. Allow some time for this part of the assignment.
Meditate for a few minutes on the content of the journal list, the struggles to assert your individuality, your desire for self-determination, and your need to be part of a community where others' “ways of being” may not always be in alignment with your own. Create an Artwork that speaks to you of this challenge.
Observe yourself in the process, and observe the product with reference to the challenges. What do you see that you didn't see or know before? How do you
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make meaning of these things you witness? Rotate the Artwork and see what new information you might glean. How does this inform your view of the world and mental wellbeing? Document your process – both the Art making, and the self-reflection.
Remember this is an Art Therapy assignment, so please consider the applicability of the concepts discussed, to client work, and comment upon the fundamental concepts in Art Therapy. In particular, discuss how the unconscious is privileged through the exercise, what qualities of experience and medium are relevant, and how the choice of medium is justified.
(3000 words) Please include of photograph of your work in the body of your assignment.
The Apollonian and Dionysian Battle Within
(5500ish words this draft – to be reduced to 3000 for assessment)
In this essay, theory from modern philosophy, (Khan, 2015) of
there being a tension between Apollonian and Dionysian modes of
interpreting, our thoughts and ourselves, within our environment,
is being applied to Art Therapy. This is done through describing
engagement within a specific prescribed Art Therapy process,
designed to privilege the unconscious mind. The Art’s relationship
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with daily life, is examined via the “one step removed” process of
storytelling, accessing mythological stories as the origins of
metaphor, such as is often the unconscious role of mythology.
The Art mediums in use, are also examined through the same process
of applying an analysis based in mythology and storytelling.
My thought process for beginning this assignment, began at May
fifth, when I read the assignment guidelines a second time. I
immediately made a series of very Dionysian choices, that were not
entirely conscious. The decision making processes which were
conscious, but had not at first been conscious, were aligned
directly with the journal keeping requirement for this assignment.
However, without direct consciousness of this being my process for
this assignment, I avoided documenting my Dionysian choices in the
journal, and rather the journal read very dry for the first few
weeks, listing only disagreement with Apollonian restrictions.
What happened is that a large array of potential outcomes of my
more Dionysian, and unconscious choices, began surfacing in my
Dreams. Those potential outcomes included a significant number I
had never previously considered to be realistic. Yet I had begun
to behave, in only a few weeks, fully consistent with a real life
outcome eventuating. Although I did not have a clue as to what 3
exact form that outcome could be. I merely perceived a need to be
ready for a major change in my life style. Then, after three
weeks, I read through the assignment instructions again. Now with
the consciousness that I had been avoiding the Apollonian
responsibility of attending to becoming a qualified Art Therapist,
and had been doing a bad job of journal keeping. I suddenly
realised it could have been better had I kept coherent written
journal entries of all my more Dionysian choices during these
three weeks. However, instead, the record I have kept, is in the
form of a crotchet projected, and also a significant change in how
I used social media between May fifth and June fifth. Eventually
I also make enough journal entries for the purpose of this
assignment, from late May through into mid-June. This way my list
I had to work from for the assignment, is now more coherenet, and
included in Appendix A, as an abbreviated version of the entire
list, which is in part a reconstruction of earlier in May, and in
part the list of follow through choices. One of these choices, is
to approach writing this essay, from a far more Dionysian minded
aspect of my character, than I normally would for an academic
essay. A part of my process, was to make a list, documenting all
my uses of social media, between May fifth, and June fifth. I
extrapolated retrospective journal entries from that list.
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My overall observances about the entire period of time, within
which I have made an analysis of my choices, as being weighted
either more towards Dionysos or more towards Apollo, I condensed
more briefly in writing, before making the Art work for this
assignment. At the outset, I had a general concern about my
menstrual cycle being irregular, and an additional distress about
having had an unwanted pregnancy, and miscarrying. By the
conclusion of the time period I have evaluated for the purpose of
this assignment, I had a positive result from an ultrasound, and
the diagnosis that I am now peri-menopausal. These facts
indicated that a potentially high level change is possible. But
as to whether the peri-menopausal condition, leading to menopause,
and that change, is leading me into a more Apollonian or Dionysian
set of choices, is a hard concept to grapple with. I chose to
keep my analysis as simple as possible, and rather than using the
longer lists of what can be categorised as Apollonian and what
Dionysian, we are given in the Visionary Practice document, by Dr
Raphael Locke, I choose a shorter set of lists, found online, by
Nancy Taylor, (Taylor, 2015), as follows:
APOLLONIANSun
DIONYSIANEarth
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ReasonOrderClarityModerationControlAnalysisResearchRule-Oriented
PassionSpontaneityImaginationExcessFrenzyIntuitionFeelingFaith & Ritual
The period of time in question, is also busy with more choir
obligations than usual, and also my regular practising at my
fledgling film making skill, that I commit time into each week.
The pressure of obligations to meet, that included also handing in
the Module One assignment in this course, and attending an
intensive weekend for Module Three, caused me to be less involved
with my housework than usual. My house is messy at the best of
times, and right now, particularly so. I have a low key feeling
of anger towards men in general, underlying the mess, as though I
am on housework strike, but without a man around to be cleaning
for. The matter of my housework feels to be beyond my control.
My Dionysian choices are all contextualised by this being a time
period of greater Apollonian demands on me. However, within my
Dionysian choices, a few very distinct but discrete, Apollonian
choices become apparent. For example, I could now continue
attending a Church I have seldom before attended. Also, within a 6
more Apollonian choice, to bow out of all social media, bit by
bit, and spend at least all of the period of time of Ramadan,
having a social media fast, a rather Dionysian possibility erupted
in a Dream, but that I discredit as not worthy of being
considered.
The general pattern I observe, is that the more overtly Apollonian
a choice is, the more likely it will be that an unexpected
Dionysian outcome is going to emerge, and the more overtly
Dionysian a choice is, the more likely it will be that an
unexpected Apollonian outcome is going to emerge. This
observation, enables me to relate the Dionysian versus Apollonian
theory, from Neitzsche in his book “The Birth of Tragedy”, into
the East Asian concept of Yin and Yang. However, I harbour a need
to investigate Neitzsche's theory more, before drawing this
conclusion.
My Dionysian drive tends to be hyper-critical of my Apollonian
inclinations, always supplying me with reasonable reason I am not
wrong to avoid Apollonian structure. This Dionysian drive, causes
that it is only when perfect, or near perfect, (if not merely
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inescapable), that the Apollonian principle is engaged with in
myself. The Apollonian drive in me, on the other hand, is not at
all judgemental of the Dionysian. Sometimes it wants to be more
judgemental, but then Dionysian outcomes reign, because Dionysos
within me insists on perfection from Apollo, and regards it
perfect only when Apollo will repudiate all blame. The point
here, is in that perfection seldom observes the imperfect, and
imperfection seldom observes perfection. And I think my Dionysian
drive is really more perfectly Dionysian, than the Apollonian is
able to be Apollonian. In my world, Apollo is unusually flawed,
whereas Dionysos always correct. I relate this conceptually with
my understanding of the indigenous Australian Mythos of the Sun
Woman and Moon Man. (Mountford & Roberts, 1965) Within indigenous
culture, the Moon Man is held as an almost identical character as
is Dionysos. At least Moon Man is ascribed the same social
function, of leadership in altered states of consciousness. As
Dionysos is to the Greek regarding alcohol, so Moon Man is to
indigenous men, regarding Pituri.
It often happens in my life, that other persons presume of me,
that my Apollonian and Dionysian drives are the reverse of as is
the case with me. However, it is with a clear conscience I state 8
that I have well structured thinking in me, about my choice to
live beyond judgement, without judging others, as an Apollonian
choice lead by a Dionysian. And this patterns of thoughts in me,
is often misapprehended by others. Thus the best explanation I
could provide, is that via understanding the Sun Woman and Moon
Man mythos, the results can often seem to be an inversion of what
is real. In reality, the sun is more masculine and the moon more
feminine, but in the mythology of indigenous Australia, Moon Man
is a representation, not of a Spiritual way among men, by of men
being themselves, a “Self”, within a self-hood, that loves woman.
Sun woman is loved by Moon Man, into becoming herself as brightly
shining as the Sun, of course for his own benefit, inasmuch as
that his love of her will always reflect her, that she will see in
his face, his love. In essence the woman reflects the man, but of
the self, as external coating, or mask, the man reflects the
woman. The indigenous mythos retains its tenure and mystique,
even today within Christian contexts, by a consistent and constant
mask.
The previous five paragraphs, summarise retrospective notes about
my full set of journal entries. However, also, before commencing
my Artwork, I read what I could find online, about the accepted 9
Apollonian versus Dionysian patterns of analysis of Art. And I
read about Nietzsche and his work “The Birth of Tragedy”. Perhaps
it is because I felt disquiet around Nietzsche’s analysis, as
depicted in this quote: “Nietzsche believes that the European society is facing
nihilism, which is a logical consequence of the replacement of tragic Greek value system by
Judeo-Christian values. Greek tragedy evolved because of two principles, Dionysian and
Apollonian working together in equilibrium. After centuries of suppression of these
principles, there is a great need now to give them their due place, in order to save the
society from nihilism and to replace the current decayed values with a more healthy value
system.”; that I sought more stories, through which I could find an
Apollonian versus Dionysian tension, and I found myself relating
to the content I read, through remembering learning I undertook
whilst studying in a Massive Open Online Course (MOOC), called
“Online Games: Literature, New Media, and Narrative” (Clayton,
2013). In that course we learn about Romance in Narrative Theory
in literature, and its application to Massive Multiplayer Online
Role Playing Games (MMORPG). Immediately I am returning into my
Dionysian humour about having a MOOC about MMORPG, and the theory,
as an Apollonian thought construct, sits well. Romance literature
sustains the hallmark of being of the Hero's Journey Archetypal
story, as in Homer's Odyssey, but with the twist of a clinically
depressed hero, who is in grave danger of coming to a bad end,
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precisely because of his belief in that bad end being inevitable.
There are versions that exist of Romance narratives where the hero
did not come to a bad end, and the example provided by Jay
Clayton, is The Lord Of The Rings; however the fact that the
Apollonian and Dionysian tension in Romance literature is overt,
is perhaps of historical relevance to the time frame of Neitzsche,
Wagner, and their alignment with Shopenhauer. (Khan, 2015)
However, that fact, if true, needs more research to substantiate
that can fit within the bounds of this essay, and rather here, I
take the Dionysian approach, of exploration of narrative options
around myself.
The Lord Of The Rings version of Romance is one of my favourites,
and this is that which I choose for relating to the Apollonian
versus Dionysian tension. I choose it above indigenous mythology,
because the indigenous Australian contexts enables Dionysos to be
the clear victor, even especially from within an Apollonian view
point. I think I need explore the Apollonian content of my life
more than I have, and The Lord Of The Rings, being a story I read
many times in childhood, is a good vehicle. In my mind, Tom
Bombadil is Dionysos, and Aragorn is the cumulative summation of
many endeavours, by men, elves, and wizards, not to mention 11
hobbits, towards resurrecting Apollo back into his former, pre-
Christian stature. Dionysos wins, of course, for Tom Bombadil
will fear no evil, and is unimpinged upon by all the evils of the
Middle Earth's world, within the time frame of Tolkien's
narrative. (Tolkien & Lee, 1996) Tom Bombadil's way, is both older
and more durable than the trials and tribulations of men like
Aragorn, and somehow stands out as the shining light of Tolkien's
Christianity, in stark contrast with the perception of narcissism,
that caused German philosophy to seek out pre-Christian story
telling modes, for use in the analysis of Art. (Hargreaves, 2015)
I found also, that as soon as I commenced collecting and collating
all the online and journal reference materials for this essay, and
then thought “now is time I make the Art work”, that I could not
help but begin cleaning my home. Normally, as soon as I commence
an essay, I do only minimal housework until it is finished.
However, in this example, the opposite is true, and the housework
feels like respite, and a brilliant diversionary tactic. My usual
procrastination tool when studying, is my garden, and I only do
much housework, when the garden is begging my urgent attention.
When housework begs, I study, and when study begs, I garden. Yet
now the pattern is changed! Perhaps by the inclusion of Art! It 12
is neither any longer, a pattern of managed procrastination, but
now a series of Brilliant Diversionary Tactics, and thinking this
through, I slot the internet in as well. Studying demands
housework, housework demands gardening, gardening demands online
research (or watching movies), online research demands study, (eg
If not Art Therapy, then MOOCs, and I am thankful nobody yet
managed causing me develop a MMORPG habit, as it maybe a Brilliant
Diversionary Tactic of retirement from Art Therapy). This new way
of regarding myself, is a response to the period of journal
keeping before the Art work of this assignment, but in full accord
with the same meditation, as prepared me for the Art, according to
the assignment instructions.
With this Artwork, I began using graph paper, to replicate the
exact pattern I had in mind. The shape is copied from a
micrograph image of a fungus spore. I chose watercolour pencils,
which is a medium I am not as familiar with as I would like to be.
It is a medium I often want to use, but tend to silence that
desire often. I am noticing my choice to use watercolour pencils,
is aligned with Dionysian choices, as though I feel unusually
permitted. This reminded me of my first boyfriend, and how he and
I had bought a full set of watercolour pencils once, but he 13
claimed ownership after we parted. The research I did around
mediums in Art Therapy, happened after my first draft of this
essay, which I made, before during and immediately after, I made
the Art work as instructed. After undertaking research, I
realised that watercolour pencils, fulfil the aim, of contrasting
the Apollonian with the Dionysian inner tendencies in ourselves.
Wadeson writes:
“An important media characteristic is control. Some materials are easy to
control, especially those that are more precise, such as pencils. In contrast,
water paints offer fluidity but are difficult to control. Their sometimes
accidental wanderings across the paper may offer welcome surprises for an
adventurous patient, or frustration for the patient who wants to maintain
control of his art expression.” (Wadeson, 1987, p. 36.)
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Before I began to add water to my drawing, I glue the graph paper,
with its fungus spore image, onto a large piece of white
cardboard. I fill the background while waiting for the glue to
dry. I encircle the spore drawing in green, hoping to cause the
background green in the spore drawing on graph paper, will blend
well enough within a circle of green. The specific fungus I have
drawn an image of the shapes of the filaments protruding from the
spores of, is a mold the grows on opium poppies, and can reduce
the crop size substantially. It was this factor, of opium crop
size reduction, that had me intrigued about the shape of the
spore, and wanting to copy. However in the background, I found
myself thinking of opium poppies, and specifically the shapes of
the seed pods came to mind and I drew in two. Then I added flower
heads further back in the background. It could have been a whole
field of opium, but instead I found myself seeking to balance the
image, by replicating the seed pod shape, with the circle around
the spore image, having flower heads protruding above it. Thus
there is one flowering fungus spore, and two green seed pods. I
gave the background behind the seed pods, red blending upwards
through orange into yellow. I had an inclination towards
representing an entire field of opium, but did not draw more in.
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I added the water, small part at a time, waiting for each part to
dry, before continuing. Only a very little more pencil got added
after the water. The blue centre of the spore, got added later,
in soft pastel. I used too much, the added glue to stick down all
the dust, then smudged the glue. So I extended the smudge, and
gave some blue to the sky, over the yellow. Interestingly, I find
myself wanting to use up the pieces of coloured lead of the
watercolour pencils, that broke of while drawing. I soak each in
water awhile, until it is soft, then use with my fingers, making a
mess. I wish not to waste the colour. Last I added more, larger
fungus spore filaments, or tendrils; this time without relying on
the graph paper. The original tendrils, are less visible, and
surrounded by white pencil, which is as it should be, because
these are not actually ever visible by the naked eye, and need
subtlety. I feel like I have succeeded in this aspect.
The first thing I notice after finishing the Art, is that the seed
pod at the right, although slightly larger and lower at the top,
is smaller at the bottom, than the one at the left. This implies
it is closer to the viewer, than the seed pod at the left, but is
somewhat smaller. I set the Art aside to look at in the morning,
contemplating my discrepancy of perspective.16
I rotate the art clockwise, and I am looking at three green blobs,
with vivid oranges and pink in the background. At the right
edge, are blue vertical lines upon yellow. There are green
squiggles by the pink. The contrast between green and orange is
very vivid, and my eye keeps being attracted to the edges between
orange and green. The middle green blob has well defined blue
markings in the center, but a darker blue squiggle catches the eye
first. I think the darker blue smudge turned into a squiggle,
provides necessary balance. I notice how the green blob supposed
to represent a fungus spore, is very messy at the edges. This
provokes me to give more thought towards the messiness in around
my life in general, and consider whether or not I know already why
my processes tend appear messy. I had worried that the green
rectangle of graph paper stood out too bad, but this way up I am
not worried. I turn the art clockwise again.
I like the fungus spore more this way up. It is a fungus spore
again now, rather than a green blob. It is as though an
Apollonian structure is more overt in the whole picture. And this
does not surprise me because opium is Dionysian as a rule, and
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those who fall victim to its habit, feel a need to struggle to
retain Apollonian elements in their lives, usually failing, and
often relate to everybody else in an upside down pattern. The
blue edge is now at the bottom, and looks like water rather than
sky. The red, rather than the orange, is more distinctive in
contrast with the green. I wonder if this is only because it is
now higher up in the image. The green background of the fungus
spore, is more distinct from the seed pods, in its tonal quality.
The geometric shapes within the fungus spore, taken from a real
micrograph image, are reminding me of lessons in organic chemistry
from my father.
I turn the Art again, and now the blue edge of sky, is at the
left. The orange and pink are now dominant, and all the green
feels like background. I am noticing that my eye is always being
drawn to the top left of the entire image, at first glance. I
wonder whether this is only because English is written in lines
from left to write, and each line, top to bottom. The composition
feels very lopsided this way up, and the small pinkish red
triangles, now at the right edge, are an irritating reminder of
the perspective being imperfect. The pinkish red colour, I
previously described as red, now looks like a reddish pink, and is18
dominating the whole image. I see that everywhere the colour
appears, is in a triangle. I start wanting the seed pod green
blobs, to have more grey, and consider applying a grey wash over
each. But I want more, that this art work for the essay is
already finished, and I choose not to add more. I turn the Art
one more time, so it is the original way up again now. I like it
well enough, despite the imperfect perspective.
I consider the perspective discrepancy somewhat further. I am
conscious in this consideration, of all my mental associations
with opium. In particular, I had in mind a specific person with
his specifically hard to break habit. That a bad pattern of habit
existed, worse than much of what is known of drug habits, and
dominated the illicit trade in opium, was what I had in mind when
I first thought of drawing an opium pod shape. Now considering
the perspective matter, it comes to mind, that now is in time,
long enough away from my encountering that worse than usual habit
pattern among men I am acquainted with, such that their
predicament feels more settled in my mind, as being fully
permanently beyond my control. I contemplate that drawing the
first opium pod, that now distant predicament of a few men I know,
only briefly was considered, and had been forgotten already by the19
time I drew the second pod. I wonder how my current distance from
such individuals, relates to the perspective discrepancy. The
second pod is closer, larger at the top, and smaller at the base.
I wonder if anybody else was pre-occupying my unconscious mind,
whose opium habit is closer to me now, may have had a larger
social impact in general (larger at the top), and is of shorter
duration, (smaller at the base). However, I do not wonder too
long or too hard, as I know it unwise to presume opium's habit of
anybody. Instead of wondering, I expect that the odd perspective
and different proportions, reflect a differently patterned opium
habit from that I had in mind drawing the first pod, but that I
have no need to know who could have such a habit. Between this
contemplation, and a first draft of this essay, before typing my
first draft, I did happen by chance to encounter such a person.
It feels as though, all that is left for me to think, about my
Art, is that there are unintended water marks. These cause me to
believe, that perhaps I will rework this Art in a few months, or
in a year, after letting it rest in my unconscious process awhile.
I felt oddly disinclined to say anything about the similarities,
or dissimilarities, between my fungus spore, and the original
micrograph image. I observe my image is distinctly different in 20
qualities of tone and proportions, yet an exact replica of the
geometric patterns within the protrusions from the spore. I am
uncertain of what these are called. Is it protrusions, or
filaments, or tendrils, I have no idea. Whatever they are, they
intrigued me, growing out invisibly from a small black dot seen
through a microscope. The differences between how I have drawn
these, and what is in the original image, are by conscious choice.
I regard this choice to be Dionysian. Then I reflect upon the
Apollonian quality of control being demonstrated in the image.
Observing myself to be very quick in transitions between
Apollonian and Dionysian modes, here I feel like leaving this
process alone awhile, before applying further analysis of
Apollonian versus Dionysian content. But instead, I bite the
bullet, by navigating an unusual course, of skirting around the
edges of the fact that, Nietzsche and Wagner, his friend, were
aligned with Schopenhauer's point of view against Christianity, as
the accepted dominant socially structured thinking pattern of
their day, about right versus wrong. Nietzsche refers directly to
Schopenhauer who was who developed the theory of his German
philosophy having been deeply entrenched in Greek philosophy, and
that concept influenced both Wagner and Nietzsche in developing
the Apollonian versus Dionysian theory concept. (Dutton, 2015)
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In general, in all my considerations, of Apolonian versus
Dionysian theory, I tend towards thinking thoughts like “this is
absurd, I can't apply Apollo's way, everything relevant is with
Dionysos here”. But as soon as such thoughts come to mind, my
behaviour accords more with an Apollonian pattern, and I research
this more. I find that concepts of ego-death, are associated with
Dionysos:
The disasters have taught me that the killing follows a pattern of the Dionysian
myths, where the maenads tore him to pieces, but also put him back together
again, lovingly. … Perhaps this theme of killing the father is one of the
emotional and political metaphors created by this era. … Nietzsche affirms the
necessity of killing culture in order to prepare the way for new transformations.
The word “killing” in this respect, suggests conscious and deliberate action.
(McNiff, 1988)
Every time I begin contemplating communicating my comprehension of
the tension inherent between Apollonian the Dionysian thinking, I
tend towards wanting to tell stories, rather than provide abstract
analysis. Thus my analysis, is of the patterns within these
stories that keep coming to mind. I found myself constantly
thinking about the following story, I once read in a book of short
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stories about Angels. I no longer have access to the book, but
the story is one I have held in mind a long time, and often
related to other stories through.
Two Angels are arguing. One is the guardian Angel of a good man,
and the other is the guardian Angel of a bad man. They argue over
whose work is harder. Eventually they come to the agreement, that
they will need trade places so as to be certain of one another.
In my mind, the Angel who is guardian of good, is both Zeus and
Apollo; and the Angel who is guardian of bad, is both Dionysos and
Proteus. And they sure have traded places. Although perhaps Zeus
and Dionysos traded places, and Apollo and Proteus traded places,
such that we don't actually notice the switch when we are
contrasting Apollonian thinking with Dionysian thinking.
But thus, the good men in my world, are more receptive and less
dominant, showing less overt leadership perhaps than we all need
of them. Whilst the bad men are getting out of hand entirely.
The seed pod at the left is representative of Apollo trying to
cope with substance abuse, by poisoning the crops via fungal
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blooms. The seed pod at the right, is a similarly diffident
Angel, manifestly the same in difference, who was also failing in
guarding both the good and the bad.
Another story coming to mind, in conjunction with the Angels
trading places, being these figures of Greek mythology, is The
Lord of the Rings. In my mind, all the best work of even Elves
and Wizards, as well as Men, is amounting to no better, (albeit no
worse), than Aragorn as an Apollo of the New Age. Whereas
Dionysos is Tom Bombadil, an eternal and ageless representation,
of life, and of lives lived in the hope of ages. In many ways,
Tom Bombadil represents in me, the already resurrected fact.
(Tolkien & Lee, 1996) Both characters represent hope springing
eternal, yet what is clear, is that Dionysos now shines, while
Apollo struggles harder.
Opium, conversely, as a symbol of all that is too deadly in the
world, and of despair and disease, is itself diseased; or at least
that possibility presents itself in my overt content. Apollo-
Aragorn is who was more susceptible to opium, while Dionysos-Tom
remains unimpinged upon. Thus the guardian Angel of the bad man,
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won the day, and the dispute between Angels resolves itself in
their now both knowing the truth of one another's real work. Yet
as is always the way, in every good story, the cycle turns, and
what becomes apparent is that Dionysos victory, alongside Proteus,
over all that was dark, is that Apollo and Zeus needed, so as to
assert their own rule once again. And now, as my mind finds
clarity about Zeus and Dionysos having found their solution, it
wanders off again, this time contemplating Apollo and Proteus as
Krishna and Arjuna debating love amid war, within the Baghavad
Gita. A debate very relevant in time, as it will be how many
older stories find they have a real interface with Christian.
That is, as well as through authors like Tolkien, having a Wizard
who returned from the dead, and characters like Tom Bombadil and
Goldberry, who never die. (Tolkien & Lee, 1996) I contemplate the
fact, that in addiction recovery, the need for such interfaces is
constantly apparent. That is, within the narcissism of addiction,
Christianity no longer manifests the narcissism that Nietzsche
objected to within his own understanding of the impact of
Christianity, causing him to have taken recourse in Greek mythos.
By now, I am thinking of a Bible story, of King Samuel, giving
food from his own table, to Saul, as means of enabling Saul to 25
enter a higher status, before anointing him as successor to the
throne above Samuel's own sons. Also of Elijah giving his garment
to Elisha. There is a passing on of a quality, which is
simultaneously, beleaguered and sanctified. My mind drifts
readily from one story to another. But by including these two
stories, I am understanding myself as on the look out, for gifts
of food and clothing, that are appropriate for myself to be
providing, within the choices I made a few weeks earlier, and
applied a theoretic analysis towards, derived from Apollo and
Dionysos in Greek mythology. I am thinking of an example in my
list, of choices, of a person I suspected myself of having thought
ill of for too long. I think of a food and garment source, and
means of supplying, as what I already sent by post, and I know it
is not for me to know, as to whether he is able accept the gift
within the good faith it is sent. But already, this is neither
especially important in my daily life.
It is easy to observe in myself, that I sustain many more links
between various stories, than many folk are able keep up with. At
least not without feeling like it might be psychotic to try
keeping up with such links. Yet in myself, the stories helped
keep psychosis at bay during experiencing PTSD symptoms, from 199926
until 2009, and are now a strong habit of mind as that I hardly
need try. It occurs in mind, that so long as such comparisons and
contrasts work, then so long as each story's original source is
attributed accurately, no harm can be done. I am reminded of the
tale of 1001 Arabian Nights, and how each story derives from
another, and then returns into its origin. I think that Apollo's
advice will be that I need stick to my own story, and the topic of
the essay, far better. But I am feeling fond of Dionysos still.
Apollo is, by now, especially admonishing of my failure to provide
a Christian retort to the Germans who defined their own
relationship with Christianity as too Narcisstic, and in need of
more Greek mythology. But Dionysos agrees with me, that maybe
Nietzsche, Wagner, and Schopenhauer are right about themselves,
and Christianity need a greater interface with older mythology, so
as to keep philosophy its own. And in the meantime, the
spontaneous presence in mind, of reminder of 1001 Arabian Nights,
is, because of its significance in relationship with opium
detoxification, (as most versions in Arabic had the King who
Scherezade married, having had a terrible opium habit implied
behind his murdering of all his other wives), (my apology that
this is anecdotal knowledge I have no academic reference for in
English), bringing my story telling full circle.
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In general, I have observed that story telling plays an important
role in how I view my own Art process. The Greek mythology, and
my own interpretation of the Apollonian and Dionysian tension that
was highlighted in philosophy by Nietzsche, is shown to be a
strong stepping stone between the real world, and my vaguely
artistic representation of the real world. In this example, the
“real world” is a series of choices I made. The weakness of the
essay, is in that the choices it is relating to will most often
have involved, and impacted upon, persons other than myself, whose
consent could not be sought, for inclusion of their process in the
examination of Dionysian versus Apollonian tension. Even ordinary
choices, such as whether to follow a published recipe or invent an
original recipe, have this quality, of involving others and their
own individual state of mind. Yet the Art process is only about
me, and my own interpretations. Overall I have gained an interest
in the use of visual Arts therapy in enabling group cohesion, via
the pairing of Art Therapy with my understanding of the Narrative
Therapy process. This could proceed by fuller examination of how
groups interact with metaphors, and by understanding the role of
mythology in providing metaphors.
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Appendices
Appendix A
List of decisions/choices, beginning May 5th 2015, with an attempt
at analysis of Apollonian versus Dionysian aspects of each:
Decisions Included in Analysis Whether decisions are Apollonian or Dionysian
I stopped using facebook. Apollo did not know he coulddo that.
I web surfed youtube more than usual, and picked up a few older threads of social media use as well.
Dionysos dominates Apollo.
I attended two events, both fundraising events, both during the same weekend, and both with a woman who told me I could join the Songlines choir earlier this year. The woman I attended with, had been becoming an increasingly difficult person to sustain a friendship with.I have not known her for very long, but she had been wanted to assert a closer bond that is real from the outset of our being acquainted. During that one weekend, I became quite hardened towards her. The second event was at Byron Bay, and we spent a lot of time in her car together travelling there and back. During the journey back, whilst I was struggling to stay awake, she told me a version of events in her life, that was entirely counter to the version she had already told me,
Apollo and Dionysos were in headlong dispute about how to relate with such a person. Dionysos was winning, although his methodwas never to negate nor diminish the other person involved, whereas Apollo wanted me to deny her.
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but I choose not to point out her flaw in the matter.I observed a series of links betweenthe present time, the recent past, and my youth, and let these links guide my internet use and general travels in the day through Brisbane.
Dionysos and Apollo are agreeing that the past is the past, yet need engage within its own consequences,without dispute.
I approached continuing use of facebook, but rapidly backed off, approving of myself having ceased use of facebook.
Apollo is dominating Dionysos, and Dionysos is happily letting him.
I began using other social media accounts more.
Dionysos is dominating Apollo.
I sought simultaneously more anonymity and less anonymity, defined by context.
Dionysos wants to be known as being stronger than Apollo, while Apollo objected and was ignored.
I attempted to contact somebody who I had ill thought of for many years,and seldom consciously thought of, but who I had admired in my youth. Idid so without expectation of open response, but based in my experienceof a Dream waking me up suddenly, within an astute certainty that I had been wrong about him. My efforts were both online, and via post. I felt distressed by my own ignorant attitude towards the person, and wanted to make amends, but I simultaneously felt as though it could prove too easy to make too much effort on his behalf, and that I myself needed my general admiration of him to be more recognised.
Dionysos is winning hands down.Apollo warns not to go too far.Dionysos doesn't care what Apollo reckoned.Dionysos thinks he will go as far a seeking Proteus help to gang up against Apollo if Apollo was to attempt interfere again in this story.
I had a very heavy and early menstrual period, following on from an unexpected miscarriage during April, and I had an appointment at family planning, for getting
Dionysos wanted me to finishwhat I had started in a video editing activity, which caused me to be running late for the
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ultrasound results, but I missed theappointment.
appointment, when I clearly could have got there in time.
I attend the same Church as the person I attempted contacting now attends, (but in a different City).
Apollo gains back lost ground, not because of the faith and ritual involved, but rather, I find this Church is more low key on ritual, and more rule oriented, than the Anglican Church I am most accustomed to attending.
I listened to more of the music I associate with the person I attempted to contact.
Apollo lets Dionysos have the day.
I worked out, that by feeling remorse about the person I attemptedto contact, I was not serving the resolution of the situation, becauseanother man I more recently have met, was stimulating my remorse because he wanted me to feel bad, only so as he could feel more positive by contrast to myself, yet when he was who had caused me to think ill of the person I attempted contact.
Apollo understands why it issafe to let Dionysos win thestory.
Then, after all of the above, I had a dream, that the partner of a closehigh school friend, (who I saw very recent for the first time in over ten years), requested of me that I have sex with him, and I did not sayno, and then afterwards, (still in the dream of course), he asks me if I want him to “lock it in” meaning, let him cause the dream to become real, including that he may leave myfriend, and become my own partner. Now, although the dream had clear signs in it, which I have been taught to recognise by traditional
Apollo and Dionysos are confused about who is reigning.
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indigenous culture, that it could indeed have become real, I politely declined his offer in the dream, anddid not behave in any way, that could enable the dream to become real, or sustain itself within me.I listen to Joni Mitchell for the first time since youth, (when my first boyfriend's housemate used to play a few of her albums frequently).
Apollo and Dionysos agree that this is a necessary outcome.
I continued finding out whatever I could about the person I had attempted to contact, who I had feltunnecessary remorse towards in my having been ill minded about him. Through this whole time period, a few times I thought, “enough now already”, but to no avail, and I continue in admiration.
Dionysos is behind this.
I considered writing a reparative tale about the person I had attempted contacting, telling his story in a far better way, that I had myself been receiving evidence of his life; however, every time I began to act in that direction, it felt like the result could enable nopositive consequences, for either himself or myself, by cause of a myriad of other negative influences in my own life, that seemed to have conspired against myself appearing of any worth towards the person I had attempted contacting.
Apollo asserts himself, onlyto find he was undermining his own cause, and needs to ask Dionysos to take commandin the sky awhile.
I chose to trust the positive influences in the life of the personI had attempted contacting, and I attended his Church more.
Dionysos wants Apollo to Shine more strongly.
My choir sang four brief performances in five weeks, and
Dionysos encouraged me when Apollo was feeling demented
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although I did not need attend everyone of the performances, I did attend, even missing a day of Art Therapy intensive to sing. The person who first invited me to choir, and who I had begun to find more and more difficult, became morewary of me all of a sudden at the last of those performances, and after standing right beside me when we sang. Her expectations of herself being able to dominate me, failed, and I had little consciousness of the matter, but only confidence that I was choosing the correct path, by refusing to give her what she wanted, which was reason to dislike me if I had shown signs of distrusting her. Instead Icontinue even now, to trust what I know is good in her.
and weak.
I arrive at an appointment on time. Family planning tell me I am peri-menopausal, and I think to myself, Ialready knew. I am, however, glad to hear I did not contract any STI during the brief liason during whichI conceived, but then miscarried theresult of.
Apollo is confounded with mebecause he imaged I was badder than I am. Dionysos is quite happy now.
I had a different Dream, that the subjects which had been pre-occupying me myself, for most of Mayand early June, changed of their ownaccord, such that much of what had concerned and pre-cautioned me, about others, is no longer the reality now. I believe this is a favourable outcome, and follow this pattern in my dreams.
Dionysos and Apollo both agree, that neither of them could have alone caused sucha dream, and let the story be as another tale of the mystery of love.
Enjoying my absence from facebook, and gradually dwindling use of othersocial media accounts as well, I
Apollo is really very very appreciative of the expertise with which
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make the choice to go on a social media fast during Ramadan, beginningat the same time as I am drafting the essay.
Dionysos handles me, becausehe knows he could not do it alone.
I struggled more than usual with theconceptual possibilities of how to plan and structure the essay, and wind up just writing without a structure.
Dionysos asserts himself, that his skill is in ensuring that all knowledge will be based within experiential learning.
Eventually, I receive unexpectedly, a series of Dreams in which I perceive that, by cause of the actions of many people, there is a positive consequence in future, which these dreams I have been having, during the period of time, from 5th May, until 16th June, are allintertwined with. In consequence I am certain I shall be becoming Baptised in the Church of a man I ought consider as no more than a distant friend in Spirit. Thus my choices so far in these matters, although seeming at times somewhat inconsequential, are proving to be of considerable real world consequence.
Dionysos is winning in his approval of the Dreaming pattern, becoming what will enable, that in future, the entire pattern is able to become much more Apollonian.
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