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The Pain of Belonging
Xavier Pons
University of Toulouse
The title of my paper is of course a not-so-subtle
take on Germaine Greer’s phrase “the pain of unbelonging,”
which gives its title to the collection of essays edited by
Sheila Collingwood-Whittick,1 to which our host Sue Ryan
contributed. It refers to the sense of alienation,
dislocation and bewilderment experienced by the European
colonists of Australia—what Sheila Collingwood-Whittick
called “the colonizer’s absolute unfamiliarity with the
alien space of the colony … their overwhelming sense of
estrangement…”2 It is an experience that has often been
highlighted by writers and critics—two examples that come
to mind are John Carroll’s collection of essays Intruders in
the Bush 3 (a title that epitomizes the book’s argument) and
Les Murray’s assertion, in his poem “Noonday Axeman”, that
1 Collingwood-Whittick, Sheila (ed.). The Pain of Unbelonging.Amsterdam: Rodopi, 2007.2 ibid., xv.3 Carroll, John (ed.). Intruders in the Bush. Melbourne: OUP, 1982.
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It will
be centuries
Before many men are truly at home in this country.4
The non-indigenous population of Australia is as it were
doomed to grope its way, sometimes in a most painful
manner, towards a sense of belonging, achieving which is
rightly regarded as “a consummation devoutly to be wished”,
though it may be permanently out of reach if Greer is
correct in saying that “For a gubba [white] in Australia
there can be no belonging.”5
By the same token, it is often assumed that the
Aboriginal population suffers no such pangs, secure as they
are in their indigenous identity, in their millennia-old
connection with the land of Australia, to which they are
spiritually and materially wedded. This is suggested for
instance by Eleanor Dark in The Timeless Land as she evokes
the child Bennilong (sic) : “He was conscious of the world,
and conscious of himself as a part of it, fitting into it,
belonging to it, drawing strength and joy and existence
from it, like a bee in the frothing opulence of the4 Murray, Les. “Noonday Axeman”. Collected Poems. London: Minerva, 1992,6.5 Collingwood-Wittick, Sheila. op. cit., x.
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wattle.”6 It can also be seen, in more oblique fashion, in
some white men’s desire to identify with the Aborigines in
order to feel at one with their surroundings, as with the
character Guy Randawha in Stephen Gray’s novel The Artist is a
Thief .7 The desire of some non-indigenous artists to look
to Aboriginal culture for inspiration and become “white
Aborigines”, as Ian McLean put it,8 is an instance of a
similar drive. Supposedly, then, to be Aboriginal is to
belong, and therefore to be spared the existential malaise
that migrants and their descendants, whether Anglo-Celtic
or not, are inescapably heir to.9 For all the appalling
material conditions that prevail in many Aboriginal
communities it is sometimes believed, almost as Captain
Cook contended some two hundred and fifty years ago, that
the Aborigines, secure in their sense of belonging, are in
this respect “far more happier than we Europeans.”10
This is far from being the general case today.
Admittedly, the Aboriginal experience in pre-colonial days
6 Dark, Eleanor. The Timeless Land. Sydney: Collins, 1966 [1941], 15.7 Gray, Stephen. The Artist is a Thief. Sydney: Allen & Unwin, 2001.8 McLean, Ian. White Aborigines. Cambridge, NY: Cambridge UP, 1998.9 Though it could be argued that the malaise felt by Anglo-Celticmigrants is significantly different from that of subsequent wavesof migrants.10 <http://southseas.nla.gov.au/journals/cook_remarks/092.html>
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may have been one of enviable fullness, but colonisation
has destroyed much of the harmony that existed between
Indigenous Australians and their environment. It has
uprooted and marginalised individuals as well as
communities, grievously damaged the traditional culture and
turned the issue of Aboriginal identity into a painfully
complex conundrum. The sense of belonging that Aborigines
experience is almost inevitably stamped by loss,
frustration and suffering. As Greer noted, “Unbelonging
hurts, but the pain is salutary. Belonging hurts, too, when
what you belong to and what belongs to you is being
withheld, exploited, undermined and destroyed. That pain is
entirely destructive, toxic, relentless, maddening.”11
There are all too many reasons behind Aboriginal
musician Archie Roach’s lament “We cry the Native Born.”12
Most of them have to do with the tragic legacy of white
Australia’s policy of forced assimilation, and the related
problems that plague indigenous communities—unemployment,
poverty, alcoholism, drug abuse, domestic violence, suicide
11 Collingwood-Wittick, Sheila. op. cit., xi.12 Roach, Archie. “Native Born”. Charcoal Lane. Aurora, 1990.
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and illness—the sorry list goes on and on and is in itself
reason enough to cry. But perhaps the most corrosive effect
of colonisation has been on the Aborigines’ sense of who
they are and what is their place in contemporary Australia.
Anita Heiss has argued that, since the emergence of
Oodgeroo13 as a significant figure on Australia’s literary
stage in the 1960s, “we Aboriginal writers have been using
our literature as a means of defining ourselves, as well as
a tool to defend our right to our identity.”14 It is clear
that Aboriginal literature could hardly be other than
militant, and a major aspect of this militancy has to do
with what it means to be Aboriginal in twenty-first century
Australia. Perhaps the keenest spiritual and psychological
pain inflicted by colonisation is the denial of an
authentic indigenous identity to individuals and
communities who insist they are Aboriginal but whom whites
are apt to label fakes, in a process which has been
described as “the historical exclusion of Aboriginal people
13 Oodgeroo Noonuccal (1920-1993), formerly known as Kath Walker,was an Australian poet and activist. She was the first AboriginalAustralian to publish a book of verse (We Are Going, 1964).14 Heiss, Anita. “Writing Aboriginality: Authors ‘BeingAboriginal’” in Birns, Nicholas and Rebecca McNeer (eds). ACompanion to Australian Literature since 1900. Rochester, NY: Camden House,2007, 41.
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from determining the dominant definitions of
Aboriginality.”15 It is not uncommon for people to
associate ethnic identity and phenotype and to subsume the
former into the latter—if you don’t look the part, then you
can’t be the real thing, and should therefore be rejected.
This essentialization of ethnic identity—“the mistaken
assumption that Aboriginality is defined by colour”, as
Maureen Perkins16 summarised it—is reinforced by cultural
clichés which prescribe certain modes of being—in terms of
clothes, ornamentation, behaviour, etc.—as being a
necessary component of an authentic indigeneity. Such
views, which fail to recognize that “Much more culturally
than biologically conceptualized, Aboriginal identity is
about ‘belonging’ in Australia and having a right to
Indigenous knowledges and perspectives,”17 as Perkins also
wrote, have a profoundly destabilising effect on those
individuals who do not fit the model, whether urban
Aborigines or part-Aborigines. Quoting from one of the case
studies in the report of Royal Commission into Aboriginal15 Gumillya Baker, Ali and Gus Worby, “Aboriginality since Mabo:Writing, Politics and Art” in Birns, Nicholas & Rebecca McNeer(eds). op. cit., 17.16 Perkins, Maureen. “Australian Mixed Race”. European Journal ofCultural Studies. 2004, 7, 179.17 ibid.,
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Deaths in Custody, novelist Kim Scott provides us with an
illuminating insight into the destructive impact that
“authentic identity” discourse can have on young Indigenous
Australians:
A young man found that he was of Aboriginal descent. The case
notes said that in the days before his death he'd made a
boomerang, and someone had seen him standing in front of a mirror
in a one legged stance, with one foot resting on the thigh of the
other leg. You know, like the image on tea towels. He must have
been wondering. Wondering who he was, trying on personas.18
The impossibility of coinciding with a tea towel cliché was
so traumatic that suicide was the only issue. Even when the
outcome is less tragic, the denial of authenticity often
visited on part-Aborigines is an enduring hurt.
This denial often comes from white people who tend to
consider that to be authentically Aboriginal one should be
black, wear nothing but a loincloth and, spear or boomerang
in hand, run after kangaroos… An alternative view, no less
misguided and no less destructive, has to do with the way
Aborigines fit into contemporary Australian society : as
18 Scott, Kim. “What it means to be Australian & Aboriginal”. TheAge. 15 May 2001.
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Adele Horin put it, “It is now the norm for an indigenous
Australian to have a job in the mainstream economy. Yet I
would wager most non-indigenous Australians imagine the
‘typical’ Aborigine is unemployed and, possibly, sitting on
a river bank or under a tree passing the flagon”19. Any
deviation from these normative and derogatory fantasies is
taken to signal that one is dealing with a fake, a “white
Aborigine” as it is put in The Artist is a Thief.20 Thus, right-
wing columnist Andrew Bolt denied the Aboriginality of a
number of prominent, fair-skinned activists such as Larissa
Behrendt or Geoff Clark, and claimed they were simply
riding the gravy train.21 Revisionist historian Keith
Windschuttle wrote in Quadrant that “certain white-skinned
people identified themselves as Aborigines and were
representative of a whole new fashion in academia, the arts
and professional activism … For many of these fair
Aborigines, the choice to be Aboriginal can seem almost
19 Horin, Adele. “Respect helps to bridge the gap”. National Times. 16July 2011.
20 Gray, Stephen. op. cit., 88.21 Cf. David Marr, ‘In black and white, Andrew Bolt trifled withthe facts’, Sydney Morning Herald, 29 September 2011http://www.smh.com.au/opinion/politics/in-black-and-white-andrew-bolt-trifled-with-the-facts-20110928-1kxba.html.
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arbitrary and intensely political.”22 Of course the choice
to identify as Aboriginal when one could pass for white is
political, and properly so—but is it arbitrary as well? The
fact that some people have indeed faked an Aboriginal
identity (Windschuttle reports the case of a group of
people of Sri Lankan origin who tried to pass themselves
off as Aborigines so as to enjoy the benefits of Native
Title) does not mean that all those whose looks don’t fit
the part are phoneys. Even though many whites do not
subscribe to them, those accusations hurt quite badly those
on the receiving end of them. They are forced to defend and
justify themselves, and thus prompted to hit back, as Anita
Heiss does in her poem “Identity”:
Why do you always question my identity?
Ask about my “relationship with the land”?
Try to trace my ancestry to work out what “breed” I am? […]
My descent is from the Wiradjuri nation,
a proud people.
My identity is of an Aboriginal woman,
Tired of trying to fit your
22.Windschuttle, Keith. “The Trials of Andrew Bolt”. Quadrant. vol.54, n° 12, December 2010, 20.
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Uneducated and limited
definition of who I,
your view of what,
an Aboriginal person,
should be.23
Heiss angrily rejects inappropriate, stereotypical “white”
notions of Indigenous identity but pointedly refuses to
suggest alternative criteria other than descent.
Aboriginality is not a matter of shibboleths – it is a way
of being in the world, an existential reality.
Aboriginal writers and activists have by now gained
enough self-confidence to dismiss white attempts to lay
down the law in respect of their identity, and do not
hesitate to challenge their “right to dissect and define
Aboriginalities”, as Ian Anderson put it.24 Perhaps more
hurtful to people of mixed descent, however, is the
rejection that comes from Aborigines themselves, even
though they tend to profess that, in line with the official
definition of Aboriginality, there’s no such thing as a
23 Heiss, Anita. “Identity”. Token Koori. Sydney: CurringaCommunications, 1998, 9.24 Anderson, Ian. “I, the ‘hybrid’ Aborigine”. Australian AboriginalStudies. n°1, 1997, 4.
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part-Aborigine—those who are descended from an Aboriginal
ancestor, no matter how distant, are themselves
Aborigines,25 and terms such as “half-caste” are nothing but
insults. The reality on the ground can be a little
different, though, and rejection does happen. Sometimes, as
with whites, physical appearance is the cause of that
rejection, as Kim Scott experienced:
I have knocked on the doors of people who don't know me, and the
doors have not been opened. “Wadjila” (a white person), “Wadjila,”
the voices on the other side of the door say. And you can't trust
wadjilas.26
At other times, it is the individual’s experience, and his
or her way of reporting it which is questioned by
Aborigines and held to be inauthentic, as in Jackie
Huggins’s take on Sally Morgan and her life story My Place.
In her article “Always was, always will be”, Huggins denied
Morgan’s Aboriginality :
I read the first three chapters and thought I was reading the life
of a middle-class Anglo woman. I could not identify anything which
told me Morgan was an Aboriginal person except the part about our
25 That is, if they choose to define themselves as such, and areaccepted as such by an indigenous community.26 Scott, Kim. op. cit.
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common Aboriginal Study Grant. From my perspective, instead of a
“Who Dun It?” it is a “Who Are You?”… Overall there is little
which indicates the writing and story of an Aboriginal...27
Disputes among Aborigines about this or that person’s claim
to be truly indigenous can be incredibly bitter.28 Being
rejected by the very people to whom you feel you belong is
a terrible blow to one’s sense of self-worth. For all the
inclusiveness of Aboriginal society, the people who are not
seen to be a hundred per cent indigenous are apt to
experience prejudice, especially in traditional Northern
Territory communities. In Ali Cobby Eckermann’s story,
“Them Half-Caste Bastards : They Cause All the Trouble”
(the very title is fairly explicit…), Vaughn, who is
undisputably Aboriginal,29 hurts Shauna, the daughter of a
Stolen Child who’s gone back to Alice Springs in search of
her family, by saying that people like her should need a
permit to visit Aboriginal land, which implies she’s not
27 quoted in Windschuttle, op. cit.28 cf. poet Coralie Cassady’s brutal rejection of ReconciliationAmbassador Evelyn Scott in Heiss, Anita. “Writing Aboriginality”.Birns, Nicholas & R. McNeer. A Companion to Australian Literature Since 1900,53.29 “Vaughn had always known both his parents’ families, even theTraditional mob that lived out bush…” (Cobby Eckermann, Ali. “ThemHalf-Caste Bastards : They Cause All the Trouble”. NorthernTerritory Literary Awards - Dymocks Aboriginal and Torres StraitIslander Writers Awards, 2007, 31).
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Aboriginal herself and should have none of the associated
rights. Shauna deplores the mistrust she encounters from
her own people: “Why do I always feel I have to prove
myself every step of the way?’30 The so-called half-castes
are left to envy their dark-skinned fellows, as Shauna does
Vaughn: “He was so lucky, his Grandfather used to take him
hunting out bush and everything. But it made me a bit sad
too. Mum, sometimes I feel you and me, we missed out on so
much!”31
Black rejection of blacks (or those blacks who are
also partly white) is profoundly destabilising. Indigenous
people of mixed descent may also feel themselves to be
envious of (and thus, arguably, less “authentic” than)
those with darker skins. An example of this can be found in
Larissa Behrendt’s novel Home, where the light-skinned
narrator is part Aboriginal and part Welsh and sometimes
people think she’s Italian or Spanish while her brother
Kingsley has dark skin: “No one will mistake him as an
exotic southern European. I feel guilt about the way I can
slip in and out, but I also have a deep envy of Kingsley
30 ibid., 33.31 ibid., 34.
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when dark hands shake his in greeting while darting eyes
flit over me with unspoken suspicion.”32 She is even more
envious of her full-blood grandmother who she thinks has,
as an Aborigine, a uniquely meaningful relationship with
her environment, and thus experiences a harmony and a
fullness which are forever out of her reach: “I watch her
and imagine that the landscape must sing to her with
memories—joyful and secret, sinister and sacred.”33 Many
part-Aborigines feel culturally alienated, cut off from a
culture that should be their birthright but which the
processes of colonisation have driven tantalisingly out of
reach. This extends to attitudes towards family and
children, as Behrendt shows in the scene where the narrator
talks to Danielle, who is part-Aboriginal too but darker
and more traditional. At age 25, Danielle has three kids,
which she regards as the norm whereas the narrator, who is
the same age, has none: “’Oh. Oh, well.’ Danielle pauses
before adding, consolingly, ‘Diff’rent strokes for
diff’rent folks.’ It isn’t often that I feel as inadequate
as her sympathy makes me feel at this moment.”34
32 Behrendt, Larissa. Home. St Lucia: UQP. 2004, 7.33 ibid., 21.34 ibid., 22.
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Many part-Aborigines have had their indigenous
identity stolen from them as a result of Australia’s
assimilation policy. Thus little Euroke, the narrator’s
uncle in Home, has been adopted out into a white family,
renamed Neil, and has grown up believing he was Irish:
His father’s tales [of Ireland] conjured for Neil a mystical land
of mythical ancestors… They nourished within Neil a sense of
place and a sense of self: real, in Gladesville, and imaginary,
in the green velvet land at the end of the sea.35
This sense of Irishness is of course inauthentic but has
something appropriate about it all the same, since like the
Aborigines the Irish were the victims of English
colonialism and faced quite similar issues. This appears
from what his adoptive father says: “…the bind for us Irish
was that you were less than nothing if you were one of us,
but if you tried to be anything like the English, they’d
cut you down. Made people ashamed of who they were, it
did.”36 One can substitute “Aborigines” for “Irish” without
in any way diminishing the truth of the assertion. White
35 ibid., 140.36 ibid., 142.
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discourse characterized Aboriginality as a sign of
abnormality and inferiority—a stain, as suggested in
Behrendt’s Home,37 thereby putting pressure on part-
Aborigines to discard the black part of their soul, to deny
a fundamental aspect of their identity.38 All traces of
Aboriginality had to be erased, as recounted by Sally
Morgan’s mother Gladys in My Place :
When I was little, Mum had always pinched my nose and said, “Pull
your nose, Gladdie, pull it hard. You don’t want to end up with a
big nose like mine.” She was always pulling the kids’ noses, too.
She wanted them to grow up to look like white people.39
Such psychological, physical and spiritual manipulations
were supposed to result in the individual’s elevation to
the higher plane of whiteness—a hollow promise if ever
there was one. The whites claimed that by enforcing
assimilation they were doing the Aborigines a favour. In
37 “people not stained with black like him [Bob]”,ibid., 173. cf.also Munkara, Marie. “The Garden of Eden”. Every Secret Thing. StLucia: UQP, 2009, 79: “The bush mob […] looked at each other’sblack skins with shame. None of them had ever been made to feelthis worthless before [...] they just hung their heads indespair.”38 cf. Fink, Ruth. “The Caste Barrier”. Oceania 28.2, December1957, 101: “The status conscious coloured person is forced toprove that he does not in any way belong to the coloured group”.39 Morgan, Sally. My Place. London: Virago, 1988 [1987], 305.
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Behrendt’s Home, Mr Symonds is quite earnest when he tells
Daisy: “Your skin is so light, you can hardly tell that you
are a half-caste. It is truly a gift from God that you can
pass.”40 It would seem that God Himself has decreed that
white is preferable to black… However, as Xavier Herbert
pointed out, the point of assimilation was to solve
Australia’s so-called coloured problem through a form of
genocide:
Were [half-castes] to flourish and be incorporated into the life
of the Nation the problem of miscegenation would become great.
The prudes who ruled the Nation were afraid of that. To prevent
it, they would rather wipe out the Aborigines—wipe out a race!41
Small wonder that, for the indigenous population,
assimilation proved far more destructive than constructive.
The political and cultural appropriation of Australia
by the British colonisers has had such a severe impact on
the Aborigines that they sometimes feel out of place in
their own country. This is pointed out in Behrendt’s Home
40 Behrendt, Larissa. op. cit., 195.41 Herbert, Xavier. Capricornia. Sydney: Angus & Robertson, 1972[1937], 164.
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in the course of a conversation between Elizabeth, the
narrator’s Aboriginal grandmother and Grigor, the young
German who marries her: ”’We are outsiders, you and I,’
Grigor would say, his mind far away, as hers was, but in a
different realm, a different geography. Both longing for
somewhere else.”42 This identification of a foreigner and
an indigenous person through their similar sense of exile
in Australia also occurs in Brian Castro’s Birds of Passage,
where the half-Chinese narrator notices an Aboriginal woman
on a train and reflects: “The native and the foreigner:
there was something of both in us.”43 The paradoxical exile
of Aborigines in a country they have inhabited for tens of
thousands of years testifies to the destructiveness of
colonisation, made more hurtful by the specific and
intimate connection between Aborigines and their country.
Indeed, as Pat Dodson argues, Indigenous Australians’
feelings of alienation are all the more acute because of
the specific and intimate connection with their country
they have traditionally enjoyed : “When you take an
Aboriginal man from his land, you take him from the spirit
42 Behrendt, Larissa. op. cit. 102.43 Castro, Brian. Birds of Passage. Sydney: Allen & Unwin, 1983, 59.
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that is giving him life; that spirit cannot be regenerated
in some other place. So you end up with shells of human
beings, living in other people’s countries.”44
Colonisation may have eroded or perverted the sense of
Aboriginality but it hasn’t managed to wipe it out. Many
Aboriginal writers proudly proclaim their distinctive
identity, like poet Stephen Clayton:
The Dreaming is my creation, I am at home when I die
I own no land for the land owns me
That’s the way it has been, how it always will be
For I am what I am—I am—Aborigine.45
This new-found pride in being Aboriginal has on occasion
been taken too far in the sense that some of the authors
who have asserted and displayed their Aboriginality, like
Mudrooroo or Archie Weller, turned out not to be in fact
indigenous (I’m not talking here of non-indigenous
individuals, like Leon Carmen, who faked an Aboriginal
44 quoted in Collingwood-Whittick, Sheila. The Pain of Unbelonging.xxxi.45 ‹http://www.dreamtime.auz.net/default.asp?PageID=73&n=I+Am+2D+Aborigine›
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identity for profit but of what might be called “honest
mistakes”).46
In asserting their Aboriginality, writers sometimes
defiantly challenge the polite conventions of white
culture, depicting themselves in what the whites tend to
see as a negative light, like Lionel Fogarty in “Mad
Souls”:
I am a moody Murri
my temper as black as me.
I am a moody Murri
drink and smoke.
[…].
Yes, I’m a moody Murri
I live to swear
and shit anywhere.
I am the moody Murri
don’t like Aussies
don’t like Asians.
You’d love to meet me.47
46 The issue of who really qualifies as Aboriginal, and on whatcriteria, is a very complex one and requires more development thanthis paper offers scope for. Here I just want to draw attention tosome of the relevant controversies.47 ‹http://www.poetryinternational.org/piw_cms/cms/cms_module/index.php?obj_id=19000›
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This in-your-face stance is an understandable response to
decades of oppression and discrimination, and shows that
there is still something painful in the Aboriginal sense of
identity—it inescapably involves trauma, even though the
sense of being doomed (as in Oodgeroo’s poem “We Are
Going”)48 has now been exorcised. Andrew Lattas and Gillian
Cowlishaw have argued that the anti-social behaviour of
some Aboriginal individuals—their public drunkenness, their
swearing and fighting, their defiance of the police—
actually amounted to a form of political resistance.49
Whether or not there is a genuine political dimension to
attitudes that many observers find counterproductive and
ultimately self-destructive, it is clear that they express
a suffering—the pain of belonging to an underprivileged,
48 We are the shadow-ghosts creeping back as the camp fires burn low. We are nature and the past, all the old ways Gone now and scattered. The scrubs are gone, the hunting and the laughter. The eagle is gone, the emu and the kangaroo are gone from thisplace. The bora ring is gone. The corroboree is gone. And we are going. <http://famouspoetsandpoems.com/poets/oodgeroo_noonuccal/poems/4601>
49 Lattas, Andrew. "Essentialism, memory and resistance:Aboriginality and the politics of authenticity." Oceania 63.3(1993): 240+. Academic OneFile. Web. 24 Nov. 2010.
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downtrodden community which finds it hard to come to terms
with the loss of its erstwhile sovereignty. It is this pain
that Fogarty gives voice to in his poem. The last line
(“You’d love to meet me”) may sound rather threatening but
its ironical phrasing above all expresses the distress of
being forced into confrontational relationships by a white-
dominated society which takes little account of Aboriginal
belonging and turns this belonging into a source of sorrow.
How can the pain of belonging be eased? Being proud of
one’s Aboriginal heritage, instead of being ashamed, is
clearly a step in the right direction, and it is heartening
to see many indigenous writers proclaim their pride like B.
Smith:
If your skin is white or your skin is black,
When faced with racism don’t step back.
Stand your ground and speak out loud.
“I’m a Koori and I’m proud.”50
50 Reed-Gilbert, Kerry (ed.). Message Stick: Contemporary Aboriginal Writing.Alice Springs: Jukurrpa Books, 1997, 76.
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Bearing the brunt of white racism, Aborigines had to cope
with derogatory images of themselves that proclaimed their
ugliness and their inferiority, like Jack and Kathleen in
Kim Scott’s Benang : “They considered their noses, lips,
skin, wondered at the lesser brain capacity—according to
what they read—allowed by their skulls.”51 In increasing
numbers, Aborigines of mixed descent choose to proclaim
their Aboriginality, putting it first in spite of
assimilationist pressures. This is the case of Sally Morgan
and also, in Benang, of Harvey who, though “raised to carry
on one heritage, and ignore another”52, has resolved to
frustrate his grandfather’s “ultimatum” : “Be a white man
or nothing.”53 He will resist the conditioning to which his
upbringing subjected him and emerge an Aborigine.
Perhaps not everyone needs to feel proud of his or her
ethnicity. The Greek narrator of Tsiolkas’s Loaded is a
case in point. When Ariadne asks him “Are you proud of
being Greek?” he says “The question makes no sense to me.
I’m glad I’m Greek, I answer, but I’m not proud of it. I
51 Scott, Kim. Benang. Fremantle : FACP, 1999, 138.52 ibid., 19.53 ibid., 426.
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had nothing to do with it…”54 But for people who have been
consistently looked down upon, and their achievements no
less consistently underrated, the restoration of pride and
dignity is essential if the pain of belonging (especially
of being seen to belong to an inferior race) is to go
away.55 This is precisely the process that can be seen at
work among contemporary Aboriginal authors. It often
involves taking the arrogant whites down a peg or two and
suggesting or asserting indigenous superiority over their
erstwhile conquerors. Thus Anita Heiss, in response to
those who question her “pedigree”, has this disdainful
comeback:
My origins are not to be found in
STD stained hulks
or at the hands of thieves. 56
In less aggressive manner, in her collection of short
stories Every Secret Thing, Marie Munkara decribes the white
missionaries who attempt to “civilise” the Top End blacks
54 Tsiolkas, Christos. Loaded. Sydney: Vintage, 1998 [1995], p. 72.55 cf. the Aboriginal website http://shareourpride.org.au/56 Heiss, Anita. “Identity.” Token Koori. Sydney: CurringaCommunications, 1998, p. 9.
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as pompous idiots whom their charges have no trouble
fooling. They are on a “papally-sanctioned quest to strip
[Aborigines] of every vestige of their culture” but the
author’s irony makes it clear that, despite the whites’
sense of superiority, this culture is actually far more
appropriate to the environment. Munkara pokes fun at the
whites’ way of life when she reports the suggestion that
“the humbler mission fare of flour and sugar was a highly
nourishing replacement for the fresh wallaby and fish that
the girl had originally been forced to endure when she
lived in the camp”57 or notes that one of the converts “had
been saved from a life of misery in the camp with his
family and given a wonderful new culture called Catholicism
to embrace.”58 The whites’ behaviour implies that the blacks
are an inferior life form which needs to be improved : they
have to be taught “how to stop acting like a black person”
and this will give them “the ability to become rational,
thinking human beings.”59 The narrator’s good-natured irony
57 Munkara, ‘Marie. “The Bishop”. Every Secret Thing. St Lucia: UQP,2009, p. 2; cf. also the story “Wurruwataka” in which a haplesswhite anthropologist is merrily led up the garden path by amischievous native informant.58 ibid., p. 5.59 ibid., p. 6.
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turns the tables on those pretensions, allowing the
Aborigines to have a good laugh at the whites’ expense.
For many part-Aborigines, however, acknowledging and
making sense of their indigenous ancestry is no simple
task. Sally Morgan had to peel back the layers of reticence
and obfuscation which her family had accumulated over the
years, mostly for self-protection, before she uncovered her
true ancestry. In similar fashion Mary, Ivy’s fostered-out
daughter in Alexis Wright’s Plains of Promise, finds it quite
hard to reconnect with her people: “Her father was unknown.
Her real mother was Aboriginal—but her birth certificate
stated that her stepparents were her real parents. Somehow,
all traces of her past had been removed.”60 Not only does
she have to make endless enquiries, but her new-found
Aboriginal identity does not come easy—she has to “learn
[…] to become Aboriginal.”61 On top of everything, because
of her physical appearance she faces the scepticism of her
fellow-Aborigines about her belonging: “She perceived a
denial by Aboriginal people wherever she worked to accept
60 Wright, Alexis. Plains of Promise. St Lucia: UQP, 1997, p. 209.61 ibid., p. 210.
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her Aboriginality.”62 Even her Aboriginal partner Buddy
thinks that Mary is “just hooked on the romance of it.”63
Reclaiming one’s Aboriginality is not the easy path to
prosperity and respect that hard-line conservatives like
Andrew Bolt claim. It is a constant struggle, a hard row to
hoe. But it is the only hope of easing the pain of being
estranged from one’s own people and one’s own country, the
pain of belonging and being denied. The pitfall would be to
become fixated on a type of Aboriginality—that of the
traditional hunter-gatherer—that is no longer available to
most Indigenous people. Like Marie Munkara’s characters,
Aborigines of mixed descent have to learn “to sit on the
wobbly fence of cultural evolution without falling off.”64
Blackness should not be fetishized in the way whiteness was
by the British colonists. Psychoanalyst Donald Winnicot has
suggested that women who experience the anguished fear of
not being perfect mothers for their children should settle
for being “good enough.” In the same way, it would be wise
for those individuals who embark on a quest to find their
62 ibid., p. 240.63 ibid., p. 227.64 Munkara, Marie. op. cit., p. 158.
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Aboriginal self to settle for being Aboriginal enough. They
might thus achieve belonging without the attendant pain.
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