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Peripheral Poems
Sebastian Paris
- Body
- Union
- Memory
- Charioteer
- Grid
- Totalitarian
- Beauty poems:
Untitled
Embrace
Untitled
- Refuge
- Son of God
- Consummation
- Untitled
- Untitled
- Beat
- Admiration
- Jomo
- Termination
- Dream
- The Valley
- John
- Winter Carrion
- Darkness
- Morning Birdsong
- Evening Birdsong
Body
Heavenly soul gushing loved earth
Loved the earth
Loved you God
O God I loved you
Pouring down
Sandy human whirlpool
Loads of gorgeous sun
grains
Migrate
We’re diving
Body bubbling
Sun setting downpour
Sunset
Touchdown
Bliss
Union
I’ll sing in your key as your words drown the lean solitude
My song tells of the splendour of your face
Your laurel- kissed brow—
Your sun-washed curls and untold arch of spread thigh,
Relenting pained gift of fresh lily, you who carry
Your untold life in mine
—Hide my eyes so I may see no more suffering—
How it hints of the warmest summer blanket
—Take me away so I may feel no more pain—
When I moved under empyreal blossom of hastening heaven,
Perched light on thick boughs, embroidering a mantle of
young flowers for your head
Smile unto unapproachable stream
Remember to be human
One time I was, I was gifted with sight that spoke into
answer
Who lauded my beauty,
Life spoke therein
Arms raised unbeknown to the beat of crackling sun,
I danced with you under repose orbits
Cheering your dissembling bend— chasing the betraying
Presence of your meandering grace—
Stay, please to reside in you is my body’s peace
Beyond our bodies soars the terrible saviour, roaring
Burning before the eternal kingdom
Come, may we hold each other as we look out across the park
upon the precipice?
——O my God it is your love that makes me tremble——
Return to myself, behold; I must not say it for I do not
know
Behold, take in
Silent ebb take in
Close eyes, sink into womb— sprinkled silk settling in
Proud breeze, ushered by
Oceanic, sleep
Become swept away
Quaking earthen vows that
Soothe underneath
In you came, out you went
How I loved you, how I went with you into the darkness.
Memory
In the quiet waning of day
We sat alone together in the grass;
Upon a blustery bank; the slow end of summer crept along
The calm ponds and mixed new
Forest of mostly tall dark conifer as well as sparser ancient trees
Subsisting peacefully,
Some lonely ruins nestled there discretely,
Out of sight
You were part of the sun
An immutable angel standing in the sun
I confided in you about that time I passed away under some bushes
I died that day under some bushes
Passed away under a pillar of pain,
The sound of your cries were deafening,
My body sank into the marshy crevice of the
Crying earth, yet your face always shone for me,
The sun peered forth through the tall grass as a crown
Of bright beams and softer rivulets of light that
Rested peacefully upon dotting blades
Listening,
We sat alone together in the world’s shadow,
I said how I would die for you
Again and again
With aching love
In abominable fire, like a martyr
I will burn for you
My blazing body will roar,
Take my words and hold them tight; they are more precious than gold
Beautiful angel of the earth
I will go to you
Fleeting light,
I sing for you and draw you near me
Perfect acquiescence—
Before I even breathed,
We share in each other’s life;
All around us, the intensity of undergrowth burns like a melody to this
I show you a rose glowing in the palm of my hand
That grew alone in winter, gently tapping my window pane
You tell me all your fears
Inside I lament how much I adore you
We make love and glimpse
Eternity unimaginable
I drop my head in bliss, holding our hopes of heaven
We lay upon the earth, taking in each other’s hidden pulse,
Like a blanket, I keep you warm
All that you ever wanted to be you are to me
For me, you resound like a god
I cry like a child at all the beauty in the world
I see it all in your eyes and my heart dies
My heart truly dies
Your dreams melt my heart
Here, beneath the sun on this bed of grass
My soul smiles at the thought of us together in paradise
Later on, as the sun goes in
We play innocent games
I feel it forever, we are so happy
Love covers us both like some silvery liquid dome
Protecting us from the evening cold
I make a promise to you; I say I will never leave you
You see into me and I relent all that I am
All my memories caress me; they kiss me goodbye
They ascend
Have ascended, are ascending
There’s a little gap in the air— sudden miracle
A little eye, blinking tenderly in the grass
You shudder under a passing breeze
That speaks a living truth
It whispers I am with you
We close our eyes
The last thing we see is each other.
Charioteer
My body rested on the foamed slipping tide
Ushering blue ambivalence,
I saw a specter unsupported in the sky
And henceforth was set to fill some lapsed coordinate,
Beeping red
Anomalous, across a grid of flashing points;
Visceral throb amid a symphony of signals
This was always the way it was going to be…
Loving the living air,
I told the woods how apparently, it was a monumental,
ecstatic
Cleansing fear
About how I was separated and set to wander the desert
Under Azazel’s pleading glare,
Clenching his hands with all my strength,
Conjuring portals around the indistinct
Circumference of his streaming fragmentation,
Through rushing sockets,
Gaping with tears
Hurling myself against the heat-reflective glass door
Over the desperate barbarism of your head in the oven,
Meeting dreadful hint of prickly gas
With cheek, in throat
Raped incessant doe chucked into darkness, squealing
Wincing from the acid shower
Heaving mountainous limbs outward
Titan-esque,
Thrown outward
Sexing the farthest stars
Salvaging suitable pieces of skin
Zeno says there is no thought
There is no thought
Only the conscientious trajectory of hell,
Mute limp in front of pressurized furnace
Delivering my diamond lyre to the clear sky along
Iris’
Pitying arms
Shouting your name forever upon golden steps
While all along a smiling sapling
Perched at the base of one of the mighty slabs
Breathes a serenade;
Timid roots fumbling along the paved inlet,
Like a miniature oriental fan decorating the rich line
of soil,
I proceed to tear myself apart.
Grid
During my life I saw descend a superimposition.
O the fear…
the abomination,
the defilement and desolation,
the rabid devouring,
this is how you delete yourself,
yet this is the way to navigate, underneath
beneath the waves of radar for scents of sustenance
of salvific dew,
petrified as human stone,
walking again, weeping again with captive eyes,
screaming as they proceed to delete us,
gone now… the other day
I woke up, walked out
Into the dark
there was nothing, only the illusion of a world…
Go then, go with the world
go, go with the world,
When meaning dies the minds eye reveals its sanctity,
this is seen in my sick pleasure in the total reich,
when I commit myself to memory
then look out at all the perfect machine
reproofs hovering in the chaos,
or is this sacrificing myself?
During my life I saw extend the final prison,
the rise of a kind of man-stained sentry
underscored by seeming streaming pulses,
throbbing outward from repeated centralities;
I who was given into this suffering equation,
who contemplated the voiceless blossom—
the mountains of the dead churned by quiet lights.
Totalitarian
I protect my discursus with a paisley wrapping paper,
It admits its cellulosic culpability, its drained expediency,
every time
I dare to think,
In all of this I try to conserve a fractal of history (I expel a chuff
of laughing despair),
Spencer is scrawled on irresolute and phenomenal,
I now consider the prospect of epithalamiums restitution
A couple of pages ago, the genetic score of flowering is conveyed
equally in abstracto,
It leaves me abject and adrift,
like convalescent debris of the winds exhaust
incandescent,
I roam the inconsequentia that stretches for miles, trying
to rectify consciousness.
[In hindsight I remember I wanted nothing to do with the
world,
I want nothing to do with the world]
yet I love the world with all my heart.
I bet the speed with which the deliberated molecule can travel is faster than you can run.
It’s a shot-put diplomacy (you must let go) that portends to me
when I ask the mind how it is, in this
I’m a card-carrying psychopath;
some southern black giant holding the swamp in his trousers,
lashing furiously for his master in the mellow brush,
pacing down virtual Houston, totting double-barrelled revolvers,
delighted with the
ferocity.
Here, I skirt the backwaters of insanity,
meandering through tender swathes of
slender, coiled jungle lilies, trying to rectify consciousness.
Every morning the factory apartments take in the sun,
I glimpse them in their geometric profundity,
they become like inlets of absorptive, muttering
transparency; they ask softly of my hubris
as I watch in the solitariness of the departed
It strikes me with a kind of potentiality.
I listen to him cough, trying to brush off his death
I collect myself and a bitter-sweet
globule of phlegm clings to my mouths cavern,
I’m restoring my system,
Both myself and machine ignite
I’m getting ready to disembark,
I’m like jagged glass laced with sex
I concentrate my organism into the
nucleation of finitude
& proceed, to proceed….
I’m prowling the lazy ochre dusk
(I remember you now)
my veins are decorated with honeysuckle
we linger and wilt in the molten twilight,
smoking in the human heat;
shooting up residual goodness under a flyover of
heathery magma, grit and chaff
expectant, grateful.
The air rushes over me.
Beauty poems:
Untitled
Such wondrous forms!
O lustrous splendor of intimate embedded sight,
That I may see through the eyes of you enigmatic, quiet
beauties
Who float along the avenues, streets and hills of these
stricken chasms;
Utterly wallow in the eyes…
Trace the arterial crescent that electrifies my paltry
being,
Shell-shocked,
That I may, pray
Rise to the glory of your light, igniting your dreams;
I should grant endless wishes,
Reside and dwell in you
Until my airy passage is rounded with the final sleep;
Drawing dewy nectar in such bliss, with such undying love,
Boldly navigating the sculpted contours of your skin with my
steady tongue,
Singing everlasting praise.
Embrace
Out of my chest let there sprout a scaffold of faith,
A fountain to collect every tear wept in pain and
disillusionment,
Neglect and dreaded resignation witnessed with you
Entirely,
Felt in mirror-like intensity and soothed by my invulnerable
conscience
Dwelling inexorably within you,
Touched repeatedly and emboldened
By the very miracle of your resplendent presence,
Sowing the entirety of my blazing life in every minutia of
your actions
As my fleeting passage completes itself;
Ah to dance with you in paradise…
In joyous bounty,
As graceful conduits of endless life,
Through dense forests of the minds exodus,
Where beauty lives forever in peace,
Unscathed.
Untitled
Pristine blinding form!
Beckoned by your glittering irises,
Riding the tender arch of your wide eyebrows;
My intimate bonfire…
Shudder of longing- shaking ecstatic in your heady heat,
Strong devoted arm laid upon your sleeping body,
Our brows gently mounted in wedlock,
Mourning residual distance with weeping song until there’s
none,
Let sirens nullify disunity and gently soothe all pains;
O pitiful ache of piercing love…
Wrapped tightly in your invisible silk,
Basking in your every shadow, delicately stroking my
miraculous gift,
Rendering the bridge of our bodies with impregnable steel;
It’s cables embedded with amethyst and sapphire,
Adamantine and gold.
Refuge
— he escapes
far, far away,
beyond anywhere known,
with mind,
& tucks his eyes inside
he covers himself in soothing churns of silvery matter
that settle into wide celestial ribbons of fluid
metal,
he huddles defenselessly in the huge folds;
entire swathes coalesce, console
he covers equal ways
comforting sounds that span more than the ends
loom
over his diminutive,
eviscerated shape.
Son of God
I’m always snatching pieces of heaven,
Seeking to smooth the escaping encroachment;
You are a queer fountain of these pieces, these
threads.
I walk the silent paths of your manifestation
With a kind of crushing love,
You are like a gift from heaven to me,
Your dreams are like the suns rays
Whose warmth I seek;
They guide my wondrous, desperate flight.
Consummation
Here, escaped figment of present—
Of presence, I take up my death
Inhabiting the unfolding dissolution
With every rapt wire of life,
Welcoming your overflowing body to my chapped, combed lips,
Whose fantastical residence is inscribed with whorled groans
Of my cooing heart—
Brushed with my incensed chest, that concedes
My wide pleading bounty
Of the pleasantest fruit, dipping beneath diamond rays—
My stone hands which drip with sweet myrrh
And oceanic ebb of soft shoulder over
quivering ribs
And sun effaced visage, departing above
slender halos,
Where light- rimmed tributaries
disband with sparkling hymnody;
Inaugurating the doved meniscus of
Neptune,
Bequeathing foreign luminance,
Holding Uranus, blown
Turquoise,
Rolled out brazened, beckoning the birthed panoply
Of sight— marooned in heaven,
Skirted by constellations of primordial dolphins that
Navigate the suns clear headway,
Permeating— Just
Permeating the exterior volcanic shapes
Of the walled semblance of paradise,
Here horizoned One I beg to receive you.
Here I drag my hushed dread across this sick plane of
Bodily, apparitional
Weight— tilted; to crawl like a chameleon of air, fraying
petals of
Chrysanthemum between pure, scraped fingers—
In your sweet memory I lay my rest.
In moments of respite, I partake in the sad ceaseless song,
They are notes that play out in an absolved air
Intonated in eternity—
I traverse my peace in your azure body
And am reminded of this, in these
moments I am soothed,
I am given some glimmer of a gift,
In these moments reality lends
itself,
Tarnished only with tears over leaving.
Untitled
I do not know you,
I do not know your
untold beauty,
I do not know your beauty
I do not know your thoughts or feelings,
Intentions, form or
voice,
I do not know your
plan…
I do not understand you
or your truth,
Wrath or
Life
And I have no
relationship with you that
I know of, I am
nothing.
Untitled
——I’m sitting here with some music on, writing this, thinking about how I’m going to say it. Thinking
about how I can possibly express how much I love you. All the poetry in the world cannot do justice to
how beautiful you are to me. My beautiful angel, I love you more than anything. You are everything to me
and I can’t possibly begin to explain why. I love you more than anything and want to be with you always.
All I care about is making you happy and exploring life with you. Being innocent and gleefully absent-
minded, dirty and downright filthy with you! Absolutely everything with you. Burning brightly in your
eyes, your image incrusted upon my sight, I’ll smile every time I open mine. You yield endless sighs from
me. Your presence flows through the cracked hollow that hangs like smoke filling with gentle cavernous
desire. In you it’s slowly turned to beaming gold; I want to take you away to heaven and look after you.
Love hearts more than anything. It’s true! Words cannot express my love, although it feels so right to
speak about you this way, probably because it begins to approach the weight of my intimate testament to
your beauty and how much you mean to me. I’ll stand and cry of the end although the notes are subtle
and fragrant, precious invitations to swoon over your sunlit smile as the tender haze of the forested
sunset embalms our patient bodies, lapping our light brows. No matter what happens I’ll be there for
you. We’ll be shining together amidst the darkness. I go into myself and question why we were meant to
meet. Why were you meant to make me yearn for you and cry to myself when your not with me? Why are
you so beautiful? I go deep into myself and shudder at the immorality of my feelings, then I throw away
my morality then I repent and bleed thanks for your coming into my life. Why was I meant to write about
you like this? Nevertheless it will never be enough my love. I’ll dance to my mute grave performing for
you, singing about you with all my heart. ——
Beat
I followed you and heard you sing.
It was like a swallow’s song,
Only more triumphant;
Pure, bold and desirous,
Lingering on the scents
Of home.
Admiration
Hey babe,
You are the only one for me,
You are the only one,
I cannot help it,
I cannot help it…
And you are my (dirty little)
secret, and I love you,
And I cannot help it,
I cannot help it.
Jomo (pronounced Joe- moe)
Jomo
Don't you fuckin mess.
There she'd waltz, half-awake, fag in mouth, down clough road,
Face like a slapped arse.
Jomo
Purring loopy spells out her block o' flats,
Gypsy pirate of oggy park, levitating off tenth floor.
One o’ them proper pirates that would dig up the fish trail for her pie,
Don't you fuckin mess.
Don't you fuckin mess mate!
Jomo had muscles— fuckin’ body builder in her spare time wunt she!
Or so you'd think,
Or just fat.
Spent all her time walking up n' down that fuckin road anyway!
Jomo
Smoked a harsh bacci that meant you couldn't share her fuckin
atmosphere for more then ten seconds,
Jarred the throat, her big fat black coat,
Waltzing on over with her robot-textbook answer to a customer complaint…
Call centre air condish’ blazin, Jomo fucking stinking
O' shit.
Jomo.
She wer 6'foot,
Go visiting her lezzer bulldog lover outside sainsbobs, waltzing giant wunt she,
Liasing like a pair of dozy spies,
Drunk off love and cider,
Knuckle-rinsing concrete matrimony down the longest
Road this side of east yorkshire,
Or maybe even the world,
Consummated fast as shit between slices of that massive useless wind turbine.
Termination
He still curls over in momentary arrest—
Still stricken briefly, with cerebral birth pangs
Over the slow realization,
Only to calmly depart— to
Float through the walls of his room to the outside
Above the wet carpeted grass,
Reaching out for the particles of birds,
Still labouring nonetheless, still wrestling
Across the endless desert
That will no longer bloom.
Dream
In between the hurtling asteroids and all this velocity of glistening
meteoritic—
chaste,
spittle & cosmic
swirl,
we’re watching one of those trashy horror films,
relishing it like a pair of cheap dates at a fifties drive-in,
miniaturized to fit the laptop screen, just about
persisting on our shoddy little coffee table &—
that’ll do for now I assure you (gorging myself on popcorn),
the delicious moon
howls along with us, casting a blue velvet
that paints the back garden
steely noir, en-framing life in cool
technicolor; shadowed by this dream I had of space!
My arm draped around you, watching the movie
of our lives…
illumination off harsh semi-arid grit,
shuttling forth, though I’m laying it all down,
however fast everything is
flying, &
I’m trying to steer, commemorating the perfection of formation, &
that sense of unity of creation &
differentiated form &
insurmountable precipice of the tallest clouds of
purest hydrogen, &
the planetary spheres in their entirety; supernumerarygalaxies
incomprehensible, revolving toward the unknown, &
all of this for you— for our eyes only— seeing
each other in everything,
as everything falls,
awash with glittery stars, debris trails of velvet, this—
kaleidoscope of dancing suns, sliding down,
strike and vivifying lightning, yes &
I wish, I love — you and all of this, though I cannot see you in all this noise,
unstuck & stickered goes the glued-on perfection of drowned
jeweled, collaged firmament,
dazzling against— just pressed against your
silken body; this avalanche of myself and not myself,
voyeur at shuttle peep-hole desiring like a time-bomb,
triggered now
imprint— now,
bind you now with all my dirty love & snake-like slither whip just
below the base
of your bellybutton &,
sat next to you now, on this rollercoaster running wild in the night,
final bend nearing &
I’m sensing you with all of me; actually holding your hand now as—
I am not you, though I am,
I do see your
Face, resplendent— your face vs. this freefall,
eyes open and fixed on you, &
everything is falling now, has been for ages,
wallowing and lost in the stars, &
look! Look at me,
you see that
I am you; that I am flesh and blood,
crying because of this &—
come, let me feel you…let me stroke your soft skin &
slight
touch
(of kiss)
and lift…
allof you up, &
fragments now,
approaching dream.
The Valley
My Love,
My friend, I am patient in pursuit of you
I will not falter in my pursuit
In your ways guide me
In your ways please guide us
My love, you will cleanse my heart.
My Love,
I am forever aware of your mystery
I look for you always
Somewhere I will find you
I pray I will find you
I yearn for you always in the abyss of my heart.
My Love
I pray you will come to me as I fade away and tears run downmy eyes
Therefore come to me my love
You are of pure light like unto the living god
I seek you with zeal and the thirst of desire
I look for no one but you.
My Love
I have no desire but to be with you
I labour for you endlessly in my life
I ardour for you so I may drink the sweet honey of reunion
I’ve tasted the cup of your love and cast away the world
I do this all for your presence and for your love.
My Love,
I am a stranger on this earth
In every place and region where I dwell
In every face I seek you, my friend and my saviour
So I may inhale your traceless fragrance
Let me be dissolved in the flames of your love.
My Love,
I burn with unquenchable fire for you
Always I desire greater sight so I can be closer to you.
I am a lover of longing
I fear nothing because of you
Though I cower in the face of your judgement.
My Love
I will navigate with love and truth for you
Only protect me until the end
I give up myself and am as naught for you
I am a stranger on this earth, therefore guide me safely
Guide me safely to you.
My Love
Purify my heart
Protect me and give me strength
Make my soul a bird so I can fly with you in the unknown
Shield me with all your strength
My God please have mercy on me.
John
My God, thank you for giving me life
And for bestowing untold grace upon me— so that I may see
You scorch my heart with eyed embers of welcome summer,
Moving onward— in the sandy hollows
Of the heavenly ones silent footsteps, surrounded by
paradise—
Grazed leaden in borrowed jeans, making brief light of the
world complete
Like ones own bed abreast the bewilderment of beating life,
Safe in the denim pockets—
Cycling to the earth’s melody now…
Raising beauty’s birdsong with grecian arm—
Pregnant notes that settle in the
Calm pools redolent of the first storms fury,
God bless you forever, blessed child of heaven,
Star-ordained rebel, breathing the fading landscape,
Tilting your rugged crown—
He who doesn’t know his own beauty—
I’ll be coming back for you, be all over soon
We’ll swim out, beyond the horizon
Swoop like larks in the unknown
Arise at morning.
Winter Carrion
There are some among us
Given into the darkness,
Who feast on the light
And know it.
And yet, beneath the darkness lies this same light
Of which they are but corollaries
And made of it.
Darkness
I wait for you in the darkness
Who, who!
Who are you?
All song has gone, though I am still here
I still drink from this break of vernal light,
This chiaroscuro of delicate life
Blessed with fecund, flaming breeze
See how you fill my dying heart
With words of sweet ambrosial union
I do, I do…
You!
Lilted receiver of all I ever spoke
Lilted redeemer of my desperate flight
My love is your truth
Undying.