OCCURR

ENCE

I HAVE

SO MU

CH LOV

E TO G

IVE

KEN UR

BAN

CAT HO

LLYER

JOHNNY

HAGER

WITH>>

>>

Daniel

Kluge

r

Christ

ian Fr

ederic

kson

Peter

Mark K

endall

The lo

ver’s

fatal

identi

ty is

precis

ely: I

am th

e one

who wa

its. 

>>>>Ro

land B

arthes

, A Lo

ver’s

Discou

rse

On the

one h

and, I

belie

ve I k

now th

e othe

r bett

er tha

n anyo

ne

[…]; a

nd on

the ot

her ha

nd I a

m ofte

n stru

ck by

the ob

vious

fact t

hat th

e othe

r is i

mpenet

rable,

intra

ctable

, not

to be

found.

[…] I

wear

myself

out,

I shal

l neve

r know

.

>>>>Ro

land B

arthes

, A Lo

ver’s

Discou

rse

I HAVE

SO MU

CH LOV

E TO G

IVE

I have

so mu

ch lov

e to g

ive /

To the

wrong

peopl

e / I

have s

o much

love

to giv

e

Then i

t all

goes s

outh /

I hav

e so m

uch lo

ve to

give /

It’s

bursti

ng for

th

I have

so mu

ch lov

e to g

ive /

Oh jus

t shut

your

mouth

It’s a

cross

I hav

e to b

ear /

Come l

ook up

on it

It’s a

cross

I hav

e to b

ear /

You kn

ow you

want

to wat

ch

It’s a

cross

I hav

e to b

ear /

See ho

w I su

ffer

It’s a

cross

I hav

e to b

ear /

It’s m

y own

heart

I deba

uch

Oh wil

l you

please

be mi

ne / A

n owne

rship

divine

/ Oh

whoa .

..

Show m

e your

s, I’l

l show

you m

ine /

Pain a

nd des

ire

Show m

e your

s, I’l

l show

you m

ine /

See wh

ere it

hurts

Show m

e your

s, I’l

l show

you m

ine /

Vulner

able l

ovely

Show m

e your

s, I’l

l show

you m

ine /

Face d

own in

the d

irt

I have

so mu

ch lov

e to g

ive /

You ca

n’t un

see it

I have

so mu

ch lov

e to g

ive /

Makes

your e

yes av

ert

Oh wil

l you

please

be mi

ne / A

n owne

rship

divine

/ Oh

whoa .

..

Cat: l

ead an

d back

ing vo

cals

Johnny

: back

ing vo

cals

Ken: o

rgan,

Moog S

ub 37,

softw

are st

rings,

progr

amming

, beat

s

Daniel

: elec

tric g

uitars

, Moog

One,

additi

onal p

rogram

ming,

pedals

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Show meyours/I’ll show> you mine>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

>>>>>>Bring me>> to the bass line>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Let me know it’s playtime>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

BOY JO

Y

Bring

me to

the ba

ss lin

e / Le

t me k

now it

’s pla

ytime

Give m

e what

you c

ame fo

r / Sh

ow me

to the

back

door

Send m

e spin

ning s

lowly

/ Tell

me I’

m your

only

How lo

w can

we go

now /

How I

love y

ou so

now

If you

come

correc

tly /

Oh the

place

s you’

ll be

Joy is

given

freel

y / Wh

en you

want

it rea

lly

Look a

littl

e hard

er / Y

ou wil

l see

my ard

or

Bring

me to

the ba

ss lin

e / Le

t me k

now it

’s pla

ytime

I’ve g

ot it

bad fo

r you

/ Plea

se don

’t you

make

me blu

e

Pent u

p I ju

st won

’t qui

t / Wa

nt to

be ful

l of i

t

I’ve g

ot it

bad /

Got it

bad /

Got i

t bad

for yo

u

Bring

me to

the ba

ss lin

e / Le

t me k

now it

’s pla

ytime

Don’t

you st

op til

l I sa

y / Tr

y agai

n a ne

w way

I’ve g

ot it

bad fo

r you

/ Plea

se don

’t you

make

me blu

e

Pent u

p I ju

st won

’t qui

t / Wa

nt to

be ful

l of i

t

I’ve g

ot it

bad /

Got it

bad /

I’ve

got it

bad f

or you

I’ve g

ot it

bad /

I’ve g

ot it

bad /

I’ve g

ot it

bad

I’ve g

ot it

bad /

I’ve g

ot it

bad /

I’ve g

ot it

bad

I’ve g

ot it

bad

Cat: l

ead an

d back

ing vo

cals

Johnny

: back

ing vo

cals

Ken: s

ynths,

progr

amming

, samp

ler, b

eats,

acoust

ic pia

no

Daniel

: reve

rse ac

oustic

MIDI

guitar

, addi

tional

progr

amming

He doe

sn’t e

ven se

e the

truck

coming

towar

d him,

barre

ling

into t

raffic

again

st the

light

, and

by the

time

he fee

ls it,

a trem

endous

crash

crump

ling t

he pas

senger

-seat

side o

f the

car […

] he i

s alre

ady al

oft, b

eing e

jected

into

the ai

r. […]

He see

s a fl

ash of

Jude’

s face

: just

his f

ace, h

is exp

ressio

n

still

unreso

lved,

torn f

rom hi

s body

and s

uspend

ed aga

inst a

black

sky.

>>>>Ha

nya Ya

nagiha

ra, A

Little

Life

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>This is blissfulI’m ecstatic>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Mystifying>>>>>>Hear the static>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

THE HA

PPY YE

ARS

Where

you go

in’ /

Wait,

I’m co

min’ /

Wind

is blo

win’ /

See m

e smil

ing, m

y dear

Feels

like f

lying

/ I’m

ecstat

ic / M

ystify

ing /

Hear t

he sta

tic

It’s m

y way

of / L

ovin’

you /

Lovin’

you /

Lovin

’ you

Lovin’

you /

Lovin

’ you

/ Lovi

n’ you

/ Lov

in’ yo

u

Happy

queers

make

/ Happ

y year

s make

/ Lov

e to g

ive me

ans /

We for

give m

eans

Happy

queers

make

/ Happ

y year

s make

/ Lov

e to g

ive me

ans /

We for

give m

eans

Love

Why yo

u frow

ning /

Don’t

you l

ove me

/ See

me lo

nging

See me

smili

ng, my

dear

This i

s blis

sful/

I’m ec

static

/ Mys

tifyin

g / He

ar the

stati

c

It’s m

y way

of / L

ovin’

you /

Lovin’

you

Lovin’

you /

Lovin

’ you

/ Lovi

n’ you

/ Lov

in’ yo

u / Lo

vin’ y

ou 

Happy

queers

make

/ Happ

y year

s make

/ Lov

e to g

ive me

ans /

We for

give m

eans

Happy

queers

make

/ Happ

y year

s make

/ Lov

e to g

ive me

ans /

We for

give m

eans

Love

Come b

ack to

me /

Come b

ack to

me

Loving

you /

Lovin

g you

Johnny

: lead

and b

acking

vocal

s

Cat: b

acking

vocal

s

Ken: s

ynths,

progr

amming

, bass

synth

, beat

s, MID

I guit

ars, s

oftwar

e stri

ngs

Daniel

: dirt

y 808s

, peda

ls, re

verse

electr

ic gui

tar, a

dditio

nal pr

ogramm

ing

Christ

ian: v

iola

>>>>>>>“Spin forme, my dear>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>You are the preferred one”>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

THE PR

EFERRE

D ONE

A fast

waltz

/ A s

low ma

zurka

/ The

way th

at you

/ Wal

k toni

ght

Cool a

nd cal

m / Bu

t with

a pur

pose /

As if

your

feet /

Will

take f

light

I can’

t lead

/ I o

nly fo

llow /

Your

hands

will g

uide /

Where

I go

With e

ach st

ep / E

very d

irecti

on / C

ause i

t’s to

o hard

/ To

say no

“Spin

for me

, my d

ear /

You ar

e the

prefer

red on

e”

It’s b

eyond

/ My u

nderst

anding

/ The

way t

hat yo

u / Sp

in me

round

I try

hard /

Follo

w your

rhyth

m / Un

to you

r ches

t / I

am bou

nd

You ex

cel/ A

t pres

entati

on / A

sweep

ing ha

nd / S

ets th

e scen

e

No thr

ee cou

nt/ I’

m not

allowe

d to /

I’m w

aiting

for /

You t

o lean

“Spin

for me

, my d

ear ..

. ”

[Bridg

e]

Your h

and cl

asps /

My le

ft sho

ulder

/ You

press

so har

d / I

might

break

I step

back

/ Anti

cipati

ng / T

he way

that

you /

Make m

e ache

The no

tes an

d beat

s / Sw

irling

and c

urling

/ Cho

reogra

phed p

erfect

ly

I move

back

/ You’

re alw

ays fo

rward

/ Pres

s on a

nd com

e / In

to me

“Spin

for me

, my d

ear /

You ar

e the

prefer

red on

e”

Cat: l

ead vo

cals

Johnny

: back

ing vo

cals

Ken: b

eats,

synths

, soft

ware s

trings

, prog

rammin

g, ped

als, t

apes

Daniel

: addi

tional

progr

amming

, peda

ls

Peter:

elect

ric gu

itars

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Drop the worldRun away>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Run away>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

A PLEA

Song a

nd Dan

ce / S

ong an

d Danc

e / I

will f

ind

I will

find 

/ Song

and D

ance

Song a

nd Dan

ce

I coul

d be t

he sta

rt / O

f your

 life

today

/ Drop

the w

orld

Run aw

ay / R

un awa

y

Run aw

ay wit

h me /

Run a

way wi

th me

Drive

away /

Hear

me say

/ Tha

t it’s

love

Run aw

ay wit

h me /

Run a

way wi

th me

Song a

nd Dan

ce / I

will

find /

I wil

l find

Run aw

ay wit

h me /

Run a

way wi

th me

I will

find

/ I wi

ll fin

d 

Run aw

ay wit

h me /

Run a

way wi

th me

Johnny

: lead

and b

acking

vocal

s

Ken: M

oog Su

b 37,

Synths

trom D

eluge,

beats

, synt

hs, sa

mpler,

progr

amming

Daniel

: addi

tional

progr

amming

Should

one c

ontinu

e? […]

Eithe

r you

have s

ome ho

pe, an

d then

you wi

ll act

; or e

lse yo

u have

none,

in wh

ich ca

se you

will

renoun

ce. Th

at is

the di

scours

e of t

he hea

lthy s

ubject

: eith

er

/ or.

But th

e amor

ous su

bject

[the p

erson

in lov

e] rep

lies

[…]: I

have

no hop

e, but

all t

he sam

e, I s

tubbor

nly ch

oose n

ot

to cho

ose; I

choos

e drif

ting:

I cont

inue.

>>>>Ro

land B

arthes

, A Lo

ver’s

Discou

rse

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I feel no shame>Causing you pain>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

DRIFT

Ken: s

ynths,

tapes

, TASC

AM 4-T

rack R

ecorde

r, ped

als

FLIES

DEAD M

IDAIR

I’ve b

een to

o clos

e / I

can re

late /

I’ve

waited

for /

It to

abate

/ I’v

e run

the co

urse

I’ve h

ad to

stall

/ Did

it bec

ause /

I hit

the w

all

... an

d it’s

taken

all o

f me /

... a

nd it’

s take

n hold

of me

/ ...

and i

t’s ta

ken al

l of m

y will

I feel

no sh

ame /

Causi

ng you

pain

/ I fe

el no

pain /

Causi

ng you

shame

I’ve b

een to

o far

/ Over

the l

ine /

Needin

g to j

ust /

Make u

p my m

ind

I’ve b

een to

o near

/ To

the a

ttack

/ Ther

e was

no way

/ I c

ould g

et bac

k

... an

d it’s

taken

all o

f my w

ill

I feel

no sh

ame /

Causin

g you

pain /

I feel

no pa

in / C

ausing

you s

hame

... it

’ll ta

ke in

all of

you /

... i

t’ll s

wallow

all o

f you/

... an

d it’s

taken

all o

f my w

ill

I feel

no sh

ame /

Causi

ng you

pain

/ I fe

el no

pain /

Causi

ng you

shame

I hit

the wa

ll / I

hit t

he wal

l / I

hit th

e wall

Cat: l

ead an

d back

ing vo

cals

Johnny

: lead

vocal

s

Ken: s

ynths,

MIDI

slide

and el

ectric

guita

rs, be

ats, d

rums,

organ,

p

edals,

Organ

elle,

progra

mming

Daniel

: reve

rse 80

8s, Mo

og One

, addi

tional

progr

amming

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Your body’smade of flesh>>>The app appears> to say >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

YOUR B

ODY IS

MADE

OF FLE

SH

Your b

ody’s

made o

f fles

h / Th

e app

appear

s to s

ay / B

ut rea

lly it

’s muc

h less

So I k

now I

won’t

stay /

With

you

Press

enter

on eac

h text

/ You

think

I’m b

old an

d brav

e / It

’s not

hing m

ore th

an sex

And wh

en I k

now I

came w

ith yo

u / I

don’t

know w

hy I w

ant to

be wi

th you

/ I o

nly wa

nt to

be

with y

ou / I

’ll sa

y / L

et’s d

o it /

Somet

ime so

on aga

in

Your b

ody’s

made o

f fles

h / Ju

st cha

nge th

e shee

ts and

say /

Go ho

me bud

/ Ain

’t no

stress

My boy

friend

’s on

the wa

y / Ni

ce to

meet y

ou

I’ll b

lock y

ou whe

n you

text /

You’l

l thin

k I’m

such a

jerk

It’s n

othing

more

than s

ex / I

’ll kn

ow I c

ame wi

th you

I don’

t know

why I

want

to be

with y

ou / I

only

want t

o be w

ith yo

u

I’ll s

ay / L

et’s d

o it /

Somet

ime so

on aga

in

Your b

ody’s

made o

f fles

h / Bu

t then

I cho

se to

leave

/ My g

oal wa

s to i

mpress

And wh

at did

I ach

ieve

Press

enter

on eac

h text

/ You

think

I’m b

old an

d brav

e /

It’s n

othing

more

than s

ex

And wh

en I k

now I

came w

ith yo

u / I

don’t

know w

hy I w

anna b

e with

you

I only

want

to be

with y

ou / I

’ll sa

y / L

et’s d

o it /

Somet

ime so

on aga

in

And yo

ung or

not I

said

/ And

young

or not

I sai

d / I

t’s no

thing

but th

e fles

h

It’s n

othing

but t

he fle

sh / W

e move

d on r

ight a

head /

Our b

ody’s

made o

f fles

h

Our bo

dy’s m

ade of

flesh

Johnny

: lead

and b

acking

vocal

s

Ken: s

ynths,

beats

, prog

rammin

g, aco

ustic

piano,

handc

laps,

pedals

Daniel

: addi

tional

progr

amming

Is it

not in

decent

to co

mpare

the si

tuatio

n of t

he lov

e-sick

subjec

t to t

hat of

an in

mate a

t [the

conce

ntrati

on cam

p in]

Dachau

? Can

one of

the m

ost un

imagin

able i

nsults

of Hi

story

be

compar

ed wit

h a tr

ivial,

child

ish, s

ophist

icated

, obsc

ure in

-

cident

occur

ring t

o a co

mforta

ble su

bject

who is

merel

y a vi

c-

tim of

his o

wn Ima

ge-rep

ertoir

e [his

own s

et of

images

which

allow

him to

see h

imself

and t

o imag

ine ho

w othe

rs see

him]?

Yet th

ese tw

o situ

ations

have

this i

n comm

on: th

ey are

, lite

r-

ally,

panic

situat

ions:

situat

ions w

ithout

remai

nder,

withou

t

return

: I ha

ve pro

jected

mysel

f into

the o

ther w

ith su

ch pow

er

that w

hen I

am wit

hout t

he oth

er I c

annot

recove

r myse

lf, re

-

gain m

yself:

I am

lost,

foreve

r.

>>>>Ro

land B

arthes

, A Lo

ver’s

Discou

rse

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Bésame>>>>>>>>Lo que decías>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

BAD SL

EEP WE

LL

Tómame

 / Fue

rte /

Bésame

/ No

me dej

es res

pirar

Mírame

/ Qui

ero te

nerte

/ Quéd

ate /

No me

pueda

ya esc

apar

Tómame

/ Ya

se te

olvidó

/ Bés

ame /

Lo que

decía

s  

Mírame

/ Ya

se te

olvidó

 / Qué

date /

Nada

de eso

s días

Tómame

 / Fue

rte /

Bésame

/ No

me dej

es res

pirar

Mírame

/ Qui

ero te

nerte

/ Quéd

ate /

No me

pueda

ya esc

apar

Tómame

/ Ya

se te

olvidó

/ Bés

ame /

Lo que

decía

s  

Mírame

/ Ya

se te

olvidó

 / Qué

date

Nada q

ue pen

sar de

aquel

los dí

as

Nada q

ue pen

sar de

aquel

los dí

as

Johnny

: lead

and b

acking

vocal

s

Cat: b

acking

vocal

s

Ken: s

ynths,

softw

are st

rings,

progr

amming

, Moog

Sub 3

7, bea

ts

Daniel

: Moog

One,

additi

onal p

rogram

ming

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> She’s>>>>>much stronger>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>She>>>>can stand >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

MY ETE

RNAL A

UTUMN

Look a

nd see

/ Don

’t pit

y her

/ She

felt h

is lov

e / Sh

e has

hope

He mad

e her

feel /

That

she wa

s love

d / So

look

and se

e

Look a

nd see

/ Don

’t pit

y her

/ She

will m

ove on

/ She

’ll ha

ng on

He’s j

ust a

man /

A man

she lo

ved /

So loo

k at h

er

She’s

much s

tronge

r

I am h

ere

She ca

n stan

d

Here I

stand

She ha

s won

She wi

ll rai

se him

/ Al

l alon

e / Ca

use sh

e has

learne

d / O

n her

own

That i

t’s ok

ay /

To tak

e this

on /

To tak

e this

on

She fi

nds a

silenc

e / D

eep in

side /

She’s

faced

the n

oise

Faced

the st

orm /

Into t

he wat

er / A

ll alo

ne / A

ll alo

ne

She’s

much s

tronge

r

I am h

ere

She ca

n stan

d

Here I

stand

She ha

s won

Johnny

: lead

vocal

s

Cat: b

acking

vocal

s

Ken: a

cousti

c pian

o, Moo

g Sub

37, Ar

turia

Microb

rute,

electr

ic pia

no,

s

ampler

, synt

hs, so

ftware

strin

gs, pr

ogramm

ing

Daniel

: addi

tional

progr

amming

, peda

ls

Christ

ian: v

iola

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Without>>>exception / Sadness>>always does the trick>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<

A PARA

DE OF

REGRET

S

Happin

ess wi

ll kil

l you

slowly

/ Bet

ter of

f to m

ake it

quick

Sadnes

s is t

he bes

t assa

ssin /

In an

d out

/ Alwa

ys so

slick

Gets i

t done

/ Wit

hout e

xcepti

on / S

adness

alway

s does

the t

rick

Your r

egrets

will

leave

you wa

nting

/ Coul

d’ve b

eens a

nd sho

uld’ve

dones

It’s y

our be

d and

you ha

ve mad

e it /

You h

ave no

where

left t

o run

Look b

ehind

/ You

r bad

decisi

ons /

This i

s wher

e / Yo

u come

undon

e

Look b

ehind

/ You

won’t

like w

hat yo

u find

/ Her

e it e

nds

Your l

ife of

leisu

re / N

ow beg

ins un

ending

pain

The pa

rade i

s marc

hing s

lowly

/ Can’

t go b

ack an

d star

t agai

n

As the

band

plays

minor

dirges

/ Dow

n an e

mpty c

ountry

lane

[Wordl

ess so

ulful

sounds

]

Cat: l

ead vo

cals

Johnny

: back

ing vo

cals

Ken: s

ynths,

vibra

tor MI

DI gui

tar, g

host p

iano,

progra

mming,

beats

Daniel

: addi

tional

progr

amming

I HAD

SO MUC

H LOVE

TO GI

VE

Ken: s

ynths,

tapes

, prog

rammin

g, Moo

g Sub

37, pe

dals

Christ

ian: v

iola

For on

e is c

ruel t

o the

same d

egree

that o

ne is

capabl

e of l

ove. [

…]

The hu

man be

ing of

great

love

and of

great

conte

mpt […

] [is]

a hum

an

being

with t

he wil

l to a

terri

ble re

sponsi

bility

.

>>>>Fr

iedric

h Niet

zsche,

Unpub

lished

Fragm

ents (

Spring

1885–

Spring

1886)

I HAVE

SO MU

CH LOV

E TO G

IVE Cr

edits

All so

ngs wr

itten

by Ken

Urban

, Cat

Hollye

r and

Johnny

Hager

(© 20

21 occ

urrenc

emusic

)

Record

ed and

Produ

ced by

Ken U

rban a

t the

Berksh

ire Ar

ms in

Washin

gton H

eights

, NYC

Mixed

with A

dditio

nal Pr

oducti

on by

Daniel

Kluge

r at A

rchie

& Fox

Studio

s in N

YC

Additi

onal r

ecordi

ng by

Ken at

Virgi

nia Ce

nter f

or the

Creat

ive Ar

ts in

Amhers

t, VA

(on “B

oy Joy

,”

“Flies

Dead

Midair

”) and

Willa

pa Bay

AiR i

n Ocea

n Park

, WA (

on “Th

e Happ

y Year

s,” “B

ad Sle

ep Wel

l,”

“A Par

ade of

Regre

ts”)

Additi

onal r

ecordi

ng by

Daniel

at Ar

chie &

Fox S

tudios

(on “

I Have

So Mu

ch Lov

e to G

ive, “

Boy Jo

y,”

“The H

appy Y

ears,”

“The

Prefer

red On

e,” “F

lies D

ead Mi

dair,”

“Your

Body

Is Mad

e of F

lesh,”

“Bad S

leep W

ell,”

“My Et

ernal

Autumn

”)

Electr

ic gui

tars o

n “The

Prefe

rred O

ne” re

corded

by Pe

ter at

his h

ome

Violas

on “T

he Hap

py Yea

rs,” “

My Ete

rnal A

utumn,

” “I H

ad So

Much L

ove to

Give”

record

ed by

Ken at

the B

erkshi

re Arm

s

“Drift

” mixe

d by K

en at

the Be

rkshir

e Arms

on a

TASCAM

4-Tra

ck Rec

order

Master

ed by

Jessic

a Thom

pson

Album

Artwor

k by T

he Dan

Pecci

Compa

ny

Digita

l Book

let de

signed

by Sa

rah Co

naway

Band P

hotos

by Cam

eron S

coggin

s

www.oc

curren

cemusi

c.com

© + ®

2021 o

ccurre

ncemus

ic

2021 A

rchie

& Fox

Record

s

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